Last entry dedicated to Joogoolick. Mystery hidden.
Life seemed to be more simple when I didn't have a bf. I'm sooo complicated.
Idk why but I'm not confident in us. I think like that is because I'm so afraid to hurt him. I don't want him to fall into the well but he already had fallen way to deep. The beginning, fun, mystery is gone, but more has to come. I feel so bad to even try to hurt him lately. >.<" Idk whats wrong with me maybe I just needed some air. UGH! I'm seeing birdies. chirp chirp.... I haven't been craving to club or to drink. Is this call maturity? Maybe because I need money badly and I need a job. I'm not that person to strive for a easy job. Each month literally something bad happens. OH GOD! I'm not even kidding. Hit&Run, pulled over, tickets tickets. It seemed to me that I only have him to talk to about cars. I'm in SF but so what! No one even hangs out in this city. I tried to vent and it goes no where cause people don't want to hear you fucking complain. There's a saying, Friends would always be there, but lately I realize who is my real friends. I guess this is how college is and you absolutely count on your own.
My life been really sucky!!
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aww im sorry diana, i actually havent been out with you guys lately, though i might not show anything, i care and if you want someone to talk to, im here to listen. there are ups and downs in life, even when shit happens, there will be something good that may come within a short period, so try to think about the good side, and again sorry that i wasn't there for you when you were down. =[
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