Walking on broken glasses.

UGh. I'm not meant for school. I use to be a good student and now I seem to even intentionally fail. WTF, I need to step my game up. I use to always think, I need to work hard in school to make my parents proud because they are paying a lot of money for my education. Especially during Freshman year in SJ. I did so well cause I got 3.77. Lately I've been making my mom cry not little but a lot. We been in fights, I got a big mother fuckin bruise that lasted for weeks. Honestly, I never had a bruise so huge, green and purple. I even lied to her that I broke up. WOW, it was heart breaking for him but I had to do it. I use to be my mom's favorite daughter until this point, she hates my guts. I kept my mouth shut but in reality it hurts. We fought over the tiniest things that it's so stupid. I look at the people at city, and they have so much freedom to the point they cut and fail the class. I use to think that was stupid, but I'm doing it now and I'm scared for my future. It is true that I choose my future and I'm walking on a wrong path. My life is walking on broken glasses.

I have to make them proud again and regain my trust.

Constanty T.T

Last entry dedicated to Joogoolick. Mystery hidden.

Life seemed to be more simple when I didn't have a bf. I'm sooo complicated.
Idk why but I'm not confident in us. I think like that is because I'm so afraid to hurt him. I don't want him to fall into the well but he already had fallen way to deep. The beginning, fun, mystery is gone, but more has to come. I feel so bad to even try to hurt him lately. >.<" Idk whats wrong with me maybe I just needed some air. UGH! I'm seeing birdies. chirp chirp.... I haven't been craving to club or to drink. Is this call maturity? Maybe because I need money badly and I need a job. I'm not that person to strive for a easy job. Each month literally something bad happens. OH GOD! I'm not even kidding. Hit&Run, pulled over, tickets tickets. It seemed to me that I only have him to talk to about cars. I'm in SF but so what! No one even hangs out in this city. I tried to vent and it goes no where cause people don't want to hear you fucking complain. There's a saying, Friends would always be there, but lately I realize who is my real friends. I guess this is how college is and you absolutely count on your own.

My life been really sucky!!

The end.

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Hiding to trick you.

It just doesn't seem special.....

You ran away with my heart. I can't feel like I use to. Why'd you take it. I won't forget about you and I never will.

I hate that I compare from the past to the present.



I dreamed twice that I was cheating. It was weird... felt like nightmares. I can't even describe why I even dreamed about that. Your mind can't control what you dream. Every time I go clubbing. He always leave me with the last dance. Why? Why? Why?

Why'd you runaway with my heart?