Lovers

How do you reject a guy nicely? It never works well. -.-
Can we just chill...
No special "Dates"
Dates are cute with the one you like =) but its straight awkward if you know he won't be the one.
Dressing up and everything.. Cutes =} Enjoy darely
Dress+Heels=Typical but Sexy
Dough+fancy restaurant=Classy but enjoyable

Replay it.
Till you find the one.
GL to you. =)

='(

I just had a argument with my mom and that scenario turned into a physical fight. It was @ 1:03AM. My mom hella tricked me and lied to me. I fckin hate my life!!! Today is not my good day. I txted a friend and I said I wished I never met you. I kind of regret that txt but not really. I hate guys when they say a joke then put JK. I don't fckin find it funny. The things he said is replaying in my mind, I feel offended. Pain/hurt. Also means, I'm done with the toy. GTFO my life if you are willing to hurt me.

SheBangs

Friday I hit the clubs for Kelly's Birthday event @ Kelly's Mission Rock, Rock Steady. =) Pre-partied before we went in. =) I didn't want to drink so much cause I want to remember what happens =]. I can dance sober. Actually I can dance Anywhere w/o drinks. I saw so many familiar faces, but gladly I saw Jennifer Tang. I haven't seen her for so long =)). This event was far past one of the best ones. I danced with Matt/Matthew =) hahah I thought he was cute in high school, but a year younger. He dances hella good no lie, but dam the dance with him was soooo long. I also danced with a Korean guy HuiHui ^o^. He was cute too... Yums..=) But is it creepy If I went to get water and he goes out to smoke then comes back and wait for me? But hes dances good too. He took my arms and some things happen =x Overall, those are the two best dances I've ever had.. hmm there was another one @ another event. I thought black guys would be good @ dancing but they aren't. Anyways, I got a bruise on my back -.- from this guy freaking on me. It hurts, and he kept dancing with me on and off like 3 times. Jeez. Idk what the hell so hard, I hope its his belt. Diew. It isn't that fun if people are drunk dancing. They can hurt you no matter what. I got so many bruises on my legs, stepped on for I don't even remember, got attacked on the face. Whatever you do in the dark.. no one knows =x.

Learn from your Fckin own mistakes.

Sigh.. These past two months has been one of my worst months ever. Honestly, September 09 is considered the worst month of my whole life... hmm 2007 June was kind of equivalent bad but As you know this month just started. I have a up coming 6 day weekend, I should be excited/happy about it but all I'm feeling now is sadness. I woke up this morning @ 7 from a txt. I guess I just stayed up a for an hr txting. I just kept thinking about what happen yesterday and its killing me (ho sum tong). I feel like such a bad daughter bringing up so much troubles for my parents and making them worry. One after another, and its non stop bad luck. D: I hate myself for being such a dumb girl. I just laid in bed and my eyes just started to water up. I felt my heart hurting, I haven't done anything bad to deserve this. This is not karma but its a chain of bad luck. I kept blaming myself for what had happen but others tell me I shouldn't blame it all on me. I felt very thankful for my sister friends and my friend to help me out. Its hard not think about it when my sister just lectured me this morning as I drove her to work. Plus she rubbed it in my face. God! I want to erase it out my brain. So yesterday.... I was suppose to hang out with a friend instead he took his time to help me with my troubles. We wasted like 2 hrs and his friends started to get mad at him cause he was suppose to pick up the dog(Peanut). I felt so bad about that... but he was cool about it. I'm just thinking...I'm a fckin complicated person. The whole day I felt so piss, sad, looked really sad and I just whined @ him so much. Smacked and punched him. Lol I was still really calm and strong about what had happen didn't break down yet. He just kept comforting me and making me laugh. It did made my day much better, took my mind off of it. At night, he brought me to Turtle Hill where you can see most of SF =) I enjoyed it a lot and he gave me a piggy back ride down like 100 steps. I didn't want to show my weakness until I woke up this morning... (-.-;) I cried while typing this and now I feel much better. My mistakes builds me up to be a stronger women, smarter and wiser person. I hate how I have to learn from my mistakes this way. Don't ever FYL. 'cause my life would always be worst than yours. FML. Time to move on.

Please, don't ask me what happen unless I tell you myself.
Ima give that bitch a early Christmas present. I swear Ima call all the G's, sister friends, my bad guy friends out to help me deliver this present.