Sooner than Later.

Guys can never be 100% truthful, caring, and faithful.
Why do we fall into these traps? Because the opposite sex seduces us....

He is such a jerk, but why do I fall into it so easily?
Is it cause you do what bad boys does? I can tell you have no game, but your so caring. I can find someone better than you, but If I say I liked someone else right now I would be hurting you so badly. I can't do it.

You gave up so fast that the game didn't even start. Practice or Go home.

Why the fock are you chasing after me when I didn't show a tad bit of interest. Just cause you have nice cars. You are also nice. How can I get rid of you? Tone it down a bit to friend status.

Acting cold is the answer to my questions, so I wouldn't break your heart. I don't want to be in this collision.
Hearts are fragile. -.-
I can't commit to relationships[Period]
I play to much.


You can never reveal the inside of my image. Every time I step forward 1 step, you fail in providing the support I need. What kind of friend are you? Disgrace

Mistakes we make..

After July 4th weekend, my throat was killing me! #.#. Partied to hard and the result was that. My voice was raspy and it itched. I hated it. Idk if it was good or not, but it stopped me a week from drinking and partying. Actually, it didn't stop me from drinking ;b. My friend told me that if my throat hurts I should drink beer. Well.... to my own experience it doesn't work cause I did that on Tuesday night @ my Neighbors house. Hehe. I played beer pong with TJ and he sucked balls -.- Lol thats because he was buzzed. The next day, my throat was still hurting. Pass a couple of days and my throat didn't hurt anymore but I start coughing a lot. Its healing now tho =)

Judith, Mimi and I planned the surprise go away party for Allen and it was successful. My costco food planned was great =). I used my sisters costco card and we got Ribs, Honey BBQ Chicken Wings, Pizza, and a lot of free foods. Yummys c(8 I enjoy going to costco.... plus theres always bo-ji-fons there. The gifts that we got for Allen was some funny stuff. (; I got him moose cause he wanted it and he can reminisce his spikes. I hope he's touched by what we did for him. It was fun how we spent time with him before he left. Ice skating gave me a bruise on my ankle, right on the bone. -.- He left today @ 2 =(... I wonder how Vicki would be. =/... I know that feeling of missing/loosing someone. It sucks and devastating. I was never really close to Allen but helping to plan this event brought me the feelings of love and care that others should experience. I know it would mean a lot to him. Take care and Come back home safely Allen. =)

I'm gonna Bie Sun for a friend cause I don't pray. Lol
I wish that you would hold your head up high.
No matter what happens don't run away from your mistakes.
Its destine that it might happen or it might not.
Wish you the best of luck. =)

Hooked on it

I'm getting hooked on ...............MJ. I don't want to be like my dad... a gambler -.- He once again came home really late yesterday after MJing plus maybe the horse tracks. Martin came to pick me up around 9.. I don't really remember but I did remember my dad wasn't home. Lagged at my house cause I just finished doing laundry. I was hoping they would lagg at the theater, but surprisingly they didn't ha. We had to lagg cause the party @ Herman's was still going on. Supposesdly... there should be 8 or more playing MJ, but things came up so only Martin, Herman, Jiang and I played MJ @ Herman's house. At least we had 4, perfect legs. It was a fun mj night. I laughed till the point where my cheeks hurt... That usually don't happen unless theres something really hilarious. Two horny kids from a private school sure got jokes actually "Horny Jokes"... =). I was proud at myself guys... I was loosing but then I made a good ass comeback. I got 6 & 8 Fans + I Gee Maw! I deserve Joogoolicks c(; We end the game at 4am. Holy shit.. that was hella long. I came up 28 points and they are losers. I'm a WINNER. =DD Hehe.

I'm glad I didn't go to SJ yesterday.. I don't know what would have happen. =I. I canceled on two parties just cause I couldn't drink. =(... but in the end, it was worth it for MJ. Lol

Round 2

Thursday was Fun =). Here is 2nd round, chilled @ home till I get a surprise from a friend. He told me to be free in the next 2 hrs which will be 5. I got ready and waited for like an hr. Lagers ya know, he picked me up and I already guessed what the surprise was. Haha So we hit up the surprise and surprised him instead. This was not a legit surprise for me. I got played, Hmm after the mall I had to go to V-box for a friends bday party & to meet up Kelly. I saw SJ friends =)))) Andy, Kevin & David. I also saw Jessica, Jaimie, Patrick the star and Kevin tran. It seemed that the party was in the hall instead of the rooms. Hella fighting tho... real stupid. I saw the M'fucker Kevin Tran and he told me to give him a massage. Instead he was pretty wasted so he gave me one. His room was sort of fighting with Patrick's room =/ but things are cool now. He pulled me into his room and it was all guys O.O Fck right! He took my phone and tried to call himself but he called his friend instead. GG! Ugh!! Then this boy said, " If you give her your # and she calls you then you would know if she likes you or not." So true, Then this other guy gives me his phone. Diew! I'm not trying to be a sausage for 2 dogs. -.-! I just kept thinking to myself {what did I get myself into & I gotta find a way to get out!} Sigh... Kevin wouldn't let me go cause he had his hands on my shoulders. Then he told me to give him a kiss before I can leave. NO. He wanted to give me one. NONONO! He wanted to dance with me. HELLNO! Then -.-!!! Kelly came and save me after its too late. We left to meet up with Laura then to the clubs. Got some drinks and drank before we went in. The club event was at mission rock. Partied with Ban and his friends. I got a lap dance from a guy. LOL! We saw The League and that made it worthwhile. HOT!! Got home then KOed @ 4.
{Saturday, July 4 2009}
I was sleeping so lovely that morning when I received a call from Vicki at 10. She told me that they are outside. My 1st thought was WTH! No one told me about the timing. I woke up then got ready, took me 20 mins to get ready. Headed out to Oyster point for the BBQ. Played again, it wasn't @ South SF. Only food I ate was Chow mein, chips and drank soda Plus a waterfight. It sure was worth $10! The day before Martin & I planned to go Tanforan to return my dress, but I forgot my dress. After the water fight Martin, Vicki and I head to Tanforan. I thought we were going to come back to the BBQ but we end up not so we just chilled @ Tanforan and waited for Herman to get off work so we MJed at his house. Turns out the 2 clubbing nights, I lost 2 of my Burt's Bee D:. Left the mall, Herman & I went to Walgreen while Martin & Vicki went to get In&Outs Plus Krispy Creme. Meet @ Herman's house. His kitchen reminds me of Twilight. Pretty *.* Hmm ate then Hoi Toy. Left around 8:30 cause Herman got a bonfire to go to. The 3 pigs went to get food @ KFC.. I really wanted to watch the fireworks but we went to Ocean beach and the fireworks is on the opposite of Ocean beach. I didn't feel like going to the motel party cause ever time we plan something like that, It never turns out good. Then I found out they used the left over money from BBQ for the Motel. Wow! They should have use that money for gas so much more productive. I got a gut feeling that they might get kick out but worst than that, they checked out themselves and partied @ Amy's. Haha GG! Martin drove me home... and later my neighbor called me to come out when I was showering to give me a surprise. The time was already 11 something. I sneaked out the house and I met with my neighbor, happens so he got a new car and its a 335I. Yummy! He drove me 3 blocks to Tingley and Alemany to watch my other neighbors play with fireworks. Lol. We watched them and a cop just drives by hella fast. Not stopping to do anything o.O!! So he told me to get out the car with him while its double parked, we walked over and I watched how they did it. Looks kind of scary but fun. My neighbor was covering my ears while I lite them on the side walk. It was hella loud but hella Fun! I want to do it again =) Even though its small fireworks and you might think its nothing special but I cherished those moments in my heart. I was proud of myself, not being afraid. =) That 30 minutes made my night. I think he found out I didn't watch the fireworks cause every time I watch the fireworks I would report it to him and annoy him ♥ so he took me out instead and did something I never tried before. He's like the brother that I never had and is never there for me. Lol
{Sunday July 5 2009}
Supposedly it's my RELAX day.... turns out I thought wrong. I have another party to attend -.- w/ hardcore alcoholics! Sigh... Went to my aunties house @ Diamond heights and everyone was there. Friends & Families. My dads co-workers is like our own family members. Before the food, we popped champagne. Popped everything, Vodka, beer, wine and mixers. Not even funny! I have school the next day.. I rejected the wine cause Ho laun yum ah. I just took the corona. Dinner... cling, cheers, cling, cling. Hmm... I drank 1 bottle and I didn't want to drink it anymore cause it gave me a lot of gas =p. Eee it was gross! I mixed beer and wine and turns out you get plastered easier like that. They peer pressure me to drink all the second one but I just couldn't. Jing yeye had to leave early, so my auntie needed a partner to drink so I chai mui with my auntie and she Looses HAHa! Man, she actually told me to bring friends next time when we go drink -.-. Wow. It gotta be hardcore drinker friends. I row sham bow with my baby cousin. She's only 5 too. -.- Horrible! I loose I drink beer, she loose she eats potatoes and drink milk. Finally I finished it. My baby cousin was so cute. She wanted to eat potatoes, so she purposely lost so she can eat it. We left @ 12 and I got ready for bed and KOed.

July 4th Weekend

Ima party hardcore this weekend. With anyone, any group... um scratch that, not with the Washgroup ..Ha I'm down to earth for anything. Edco class told me that I'm a risk tacker. Hay, You do live once, why worry about the small little things? Just chillaxe. Don't be so uptight. I could have went to Lake Tahoe with my sister & her friends for the July weekend =,[ but there was no room for me in the hotel. I had plans tonight anyways and I shouldn't be a flaker. I stay true to my words. It feels like I'm only making plans with guy friends but I kept flaking out on them. UGh I hate that about myself. Promises are promises. Ok, I must work and clean. I feel so busy making plans and I feel horrible for flaking every plan I make. Hopefully, I can scratch one of the plans on my list tonight. Hmm What should I do on July 4th? Should I hang with new people since my group of friends aren't doing anything =/ and some just don't party. -.- Sucks balls to decide. Shower & Out. I also must chill where there is no money involve.

I drove to CT to meet up Kelly around 8 something after my dinner. There was traffic =(! I attempted to park on the left side of the street, shit it was hard cause it was on little hill plus I never parked on a left side before. I hate parking on hills. I tried to find parking on Washington street but turns out there is street cleaning. End up just driving to Richmond and parked @ Smart&Finals. Met her friends Tony&Johnson near 9Longtong and we went to 2nd Ave. to get drinks. Tony's car was yummy c(=, IS350. Lawl...Went into 9Longtong to meet her friend Laura so she can drive us to Glaskat. Got to Glaskat, before we went in, we drank in the car. There was Bacardi Gold& Smirnoff Apple. Poor Kelly, yacked her dinner out =(. Got in and there wasn't much people there so we went to the ____ room to wait for the guys and people. I saw Jay like finally. The Academy class of 09 was there. We waited for the guys and it turns out to be like 10 just like a gang and we got to the dance floor. I danced with the girls then I danced with Johnson&Darren and then Darren like twice but with Johnson more. It feels kinda weird that random guys just approach behind you and holds you tight and starts dancing. Later on that night, I can tell who I danced with and who I didn't. Some guys just can not dance!! I saw Lily, my babe! I met some new people but I don't remember there names considering that I'm bad with names. There was a white promoter who saw me dancing with a guy and Kelly was in front of me. I think he wanted some but I kept saying No. This is like the 1st time I danced with hella guys this night. Estimation of around 5-10. I had hella fun tho. I think I taught Johnson how to dance better, hes a cutie. It turns out I danced with William in the Academy class which also I went to chinese school with. After the clubs we went our separate ways. Laura's car went to SomWo to get some food. The rest went home. Dropped kelly home then me to Smart&Finals to get my car. I love these kind of nights. New people+ New Personalities=Trouble.