我不開心

I was having a good week but I was knocked down until today and I feel a little sad today..... Idk but I just do. This morning I got locked inside my own room because the lock was stuck. My morning started bad already. I don't want to deal with more...but I'm so sick of that Fags shit. I'm sick of it.. He said "Fuck you" to me.. He turned his head away from me and said it quietly. Even though he thinks they are just jokes. I got irritated. Then he said are you crying... No, I'm F' whining to get your face outa mine. GOshh I wanna kick him in the face. Every time in English class the M'fucka pisses me off. He always had to sit next to me too. I get capped on and I know it, All guys like that but I have Feelings too. SJ guys take it overboard and I'm done and gone with it.
Then In class I recieved a txt from T with R's phone... He said like hey cutie =[. I'm so over it... then he was saying " ILY". I'm a heartbreaker. I can play hardcore with you but I don't have to heart to. Your full of BS. Same with friends. I wanna tell you something... but your blindly to see cus she got you hypnotize with her fakeness. If I tell you, this might break your friendship with her. I guess some people prefer fake friends than honest one or your just to innocently dumb to realize it.
我不能玩趕.

I want some unconditional love. Its hard isin't it ='[. Make me smile at least for the sorrow I have to live through. I might look tough but my heart is shattered into pieces, you took the best out of me. I treat you like gold. And you repay me by treating me like bronze. I hear you out but you can't hear me out? Thanks. I put a smile out to play you all.