Dear Santa,

I wish to wash the bad memories from the past couple months, but only remember the good ones <3. Can you make that as my Christmas present, Santa?

Cha Ching Cha Ching.

Lately all I hear is cha ching cha ching... that goes on and on since Black Friday. I literally shopped almost every other day but the good thing is I bought most presents and birthday presents except my sister's birthday gift. The ones you live with are the hardest to get the gifts. There are some good and naughty things ;}. I can't wait!! Sadly, I couldn't hold my card case enough but spent money on myself =x. Spend an hr @ Armani, and Old Navy then ate @ Westfield. I never had enough time in one day to shop but it was fun.=} I never bought anything for Mimi's birthday, I need some hints -.- Iya!

Overly whelmed about next semesters classes. Ugh I hate thinking about it.
I'm also doing swell on the other hand except school wise =}. I like life EXCEPT School.
Good News: I'm getting my car back either on Thurs or Fri =))

Walking on broken glasses.

UGh. I'm not meant for school. I use to be a good student and now I seem to even intentionally fail. WTF, I need to step my game up. I use to always think, I need to work hard in school to make my parents proud because they are paying a lot of money for my education. Especially during Freshman year in SJ. I did so well cause I got 3.77. Lately I've been making my mom cry not little but a lot. We been in fights, I got a big mother fuckin bruise that lasted for weeks. Honestly, I never had a bruise so huge, green and purple. I even lied to her that I broke up. WOW, it was heart breaking for him but I had to do it. I use to be my mom's favorite daughter until this point, she hates my guts. I kept my mouth shut but in reality it hurts. We fought over the tiniest things that it's so stupid. I look at the people at city, and they have so much freedom to the point they cut and fail the class. I use to think that was stupid, but I'm doing it now and I'm scared for my future. It is true that I choose my future and I'm walking on a wrong path. My life is walking on broken glasses.

I have to make them proud again and regain my trust.

Constanty T.T

Last entry dedicated to Joogoolick. Mystery hidden.

Life seemed to be more simple when I didn't have a bf. I'm sooo complicated.
Idk why but I'm not confident in us. I think like that is because I'm so afraid to hurt him. I don't want him to fall into the well but he already had fallen way to deep. The beginning, fun, mystery is gone, but more has to come. I feel so bad to even try to hurt him lately. >.<" Idk whats wrong with me maybe I just needed some air. UGH! I'm seeing birdies. chirp chirp.... I haven't been craving to club or to drink. Is this call maturity? Maybe because I need money badly and I need a job. I'm not that person to strive for a easy job. Each month literally something bad happens. OH GOD! I'm not even kidding. Hit&Run, pulled over, tickets tickets. It seemed to me that I only have him to talk to about cars. I'm in SF but so what! No one even hangs out in this city. I tried to vent and it goes no where cause people don't want to hear you fucking complain. There's a saying, Friends would always be there, but lately I realize who is my real friends. I guess this is how college is and you absolutely count on your own.

My life been really sucky!!

The end.

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Hiding to trick you.

It just doesn't seem special.....

You ran away with my heart. I can't feel like I use to. Why'd you take it. I won't forget about you and I never will.

I hate that I compare from the past to the present.



I dreamed twice that I was cheating. It was weird... felt like nightmares. I can't even describe why I even dreamed about that. Your mind can't control what you dream. Every time I go clubbing. He always leave me with the last dance. Why? Why? Why?

Why'd you runaway with my heart?

Mid way towards semester

I suck in trying to do good in school.

Been out chilling everyday. On Wednesday I usually go to SJ. I gave Alex's gf a ride to SJ. Chilled @ his place and they both were smoking. Him & I head to Stevens Creek Blvd to get touch up paint. I was suppose to get a oil changed but I still had 60% over 3k miles. Ima wait till later. Off to Valley Fair cause my 1o'clock class got canceled. I got Mongolian thang. It was hella yummay. It was my third time getting it. Kool, how you get a bowl try to stuff it with a lot of things then the chef cook it for you. Browsed through some stores and I wanted the Armani sweater. We might match =)I was half an hr late for class =(. Oh Wells, at least I went. I chilled @ the Library and we watched OTH HAHA!! He went to Econ with me =) and he stayed the whole 3 hrs. After class, we headed to Alex's house. I saw Donald Faggot Fang. That true asshole is a Fatshit. I was hoping I get a "=O Diana... Capping on me like always" but instead He was sleeping with ass in the air. -.-! We went down and they smoked weed with a bong. -.# I smelled it hoping I would be ok driving but I got contact so I got a headache. We left after more people came cause we got hungry. Walked around SJ dt and we found nothing. I drove back while he sleep his fat ass off.

Jealous bitches should die

Sigh. I can't deal with Jealous Bitches anymore! You ruined the friendship thinking I can jeopardize your relationship with your bf. Gosh! I feel so stupid having some girl friends. I can honestly say if I had trouble..... I wouldn't ask a girl for advice but maybe some that are experience. Some are just so devil. How can I trust you? If I was betrayed by so many. NO matter how long I've known you for, you would still stab me. Dumb bitch that I've known for over 10 yrs.
[R.I.P, Bitch]. You're dead to me.

Reflect on your friends.

I'm shocked. 1st thing I thought about was. OMG Yo's cousin was right. In the year 08 I have to be aware of a close friend that I might start beef with and have a fight. I need to find him!

T(10:00:13 PM): but you seem very koo and nice
T(10:00:19 PM): so dats why i didnt forget bout u
T(10:00:35 PM): the main point of me contactin you today
T(10:01:03 PM): is i just wanted to let you know,Becareful who you chose as your friend or close friend
T(10:01:20 PM): dont want to see you get into unnesscary drama/bs/dispute
T(10:02:08 PM): when i heard some things a few days ago,i just felt as i needed to warn you and prehaps give u a perspective on what i see.

T(10:11:15 PM): so immature
T(10:11:17 PM): so mean
T(10:11:20 PM): so juvinelle
T(10:11:29 PM): words cant really descibe the blackness from her

Wow! After I heard about this my heart sinked. I hella hopped he didn't say what I hope not to hear. How the fuck can you do me like that after many years of knowing you. 2 Face true immature person. Now, I really wished I never met you. It's good I don't even talk to you anymore. I feel sick to my stomach after I heard this and this is the way how I found out. You will never get away with this! Your epitome of hate tells me you regret doing the hurtful things to me. Anyways. Fck you! I won't give a shit about you anymore. All you will hear from me is Hi&Bye. Bye to this friendship. No wonder you don't have any friends. You tried to get the face and maybe the body but your personality will define you.


The phrase of "Keep friends close but keep enemies closer." I definitely agree. Karma will haunt you.

My mind will never think about hatred, immature, such juvenile acts. What do you honestly use your brain for?!? You truly have bad morals, I feel sad for you.
My good citizens, I want to meet you so you can guide me to a great future. Please send a male w/ no drama. My life has been like a roller coaster ride lately. It gets good then it goes down to the pit.

Lovers

How do you reject a guy nicely? It never works well. -.-
Can we just chill...
No special "Dates"
Dates are cute with the one you like =) but its straight awkward if you know he won't be the one.
Dressing up and everything.. Cutes =} Enjoy darely
Dress+Heels=Typical but Sexy
Dough+fancy restaurant=Classy but enjoyable

Replay it.
Till you find the one.
GL to you. =)

='(

I just had a argument with my mom and that scenario turned into a physical fight. It was @ 1:03AM. My mom hella tricked me and lied to me. I fckin hate my life!!! Today is not my good day. I txted a friend and I said I wished I never met you. I kind of regret that txt but not really. I hate guys when they say a joke then put JK. I don't fckin find it funny. The things he said is replaying in my mind, I feel offended. Pain/hurt. Also means, I'm done with the toy. GTFO my life if you are willing to hurt me.

SheBangs

Friday I hit the clubs for Kelly's Birthday event @ Kelly's Mission Rock, Rock Steady. =) Pre-partied before we went in. =) I didn't want to drink so much cause I want to remember what happens =]. I can dance sober. Actually I can dance Anywhere w/o drinks. I saw so many familiar faces, but gladly I saw Jennifer Tang. I haven't seen her for so long =)). This event was far past one of the best ones. I danced with Matt/Matthew =) hahah I thought he was cute in high school, but a year younger. He dances hella good no lie, but dam the dance with him was soooo long. I also danced with a Korean guy HuiHui ^o^. He was cute too... Yums..=) But is it creepy If I went to get water and he goes out to smoke then comes back and wait for me? But hes dances good too. He took my arms and some things happen =x Overall, those are the two best dances I've ever had.. hmm there was another one @ another event. I thought black guys would be good @ dancing but they aren't. Anyways, I got a bruise on my back -.- from this guy freaking on me. It hurts, and he kept dancing with me on and off like 3 times. Jeez. Idk what the hell so hard, I hope its his belt. Diew. It isn't that fun if people are drunk dancing. They can hurt you no matter what. I got so many bruises on my legs, stepped on for I don't even remember, got attacked on the face. Whatever you do in the dark.. no one knows =x.

Learn from your Fckin own mistakes.

Sigh.. These past two months has been one of my worst months ever. Honestly, September 09 is considered the worst month of my whole life... hmm 2007 June was kind of equivalent bad but As you know this month just started. I have a up coming 6 day weekend, I should be excited/happy about it but all I'm feeling now is sadness. I woke up this morning @ 7 from a txt. I guess I just stayed up a for an hr txting. I just kept thinking about what happen yesterday and its killing me (ho sum tong). I feel like such a bad daughter bringing up so much troubles for my parents and making them worry. One after another, and its non stop bad luck. D: I hate myself for being such a dumb girl. I just laid in bed and my eyes just started to water up. I felt my heart hurting, I haven't done anything bad to deserve this. This is not karma but its a chain of bad luck. I kept blaming myself for what had happen but others tell me I shouldn't blame it all on me. I felt very thankful for my sister friends and my friend to help me out. Its hard not think about it when my sister just lectured me this morning as I drove her to work. Plus she rubbed it in my face. God! I want to erase it out my brain. So yesterday.... I was suppose to hang out with a friend instead he took his time to help me with my troubles. We wasted like 2 hrs and his friends started to get mad at him cause he was suppose to pick up the dog(Peanut). I felt so bad about that... but he was cool about it. I'm just thinking...I'm a fckin complicated person. The whole day I felt so piss, sad, looked really sad and I just whined @ him so much. Smacked and punched him. Lol I was still really calm and strong about what had happen didn't break down yet. He just kept comforting me and making me laugh. It did made my day much better, took my mind off of it. At night, he brought me to Turtle Hill where you can see most of SF =) I enjoyed it a lot and he gave me a piggy back ride down like 100 steps. I didn't want to show my weakness until I woke up this morning... (-.-;) I cried while typing this and now I feel much better. My mistakes builds me up to be a stronger women, smarter and wiser person. I hate how I have to learn from my mistakes this way. Don't ever FYL. 'cause my life would always be worst than yours. FML. Time to move on.

Please, don't ask me what happen unless I tell you myself.
Ima give that bitch a early Christmas present. I swear Ima call all the G's, sister friends, my bad guy friends out to help me deliver this present.

=DD Love Connected

So... I was browsing online for Chinese movies and I came to Love Connected. I got so excited when I found it 'cause when I was in China Koi Ping, I saw this movie poster posted on the wall and I really wanted to watch it, but not enough time. That was like two months ago... =)

I am really thinking twice about studying abroad in Hong Kong just because I love the weather there and I can cope with it. In SF, I'm breaking out horribly to the point that I don't want to go out, but I have school. Booo. Ugh, My face never broke out this bad before. Who am I to blame about it? No one... but myself for having people put there hands and face all over my face.

Drink your sorrow away.

Omg... My sister admit that she parties very night. She's gonna kill her liver and that prob shorten her life. Honestly, what does drinking make you feel? I'm sure its diff for everyone but Jeez Can you not drink your every single M'Fuckin Day. 3 Months straight.... continuously and on and off none stop drinking. I rather have you get Blazed. That wouldn't effect you much besides putting you onto cloud 9. Ignorant Biotch. You can have fun w/o drinks. You just give yourself an excuse to loosen up and make mistakes that you might regret. People just drink there life away.... while I just sit and watch the entertainment. =/

Name some days w/o drinks that you had a blast on? Not many huh? Well I had plenty... I honestly drink not to get fck up to the point I have to yack, get so wasted that I'll forget what I've done... but to relieve some stress and dance wildly with people that also love to dance. Who do you take me as? A wild animal? NO. I'm not any source of entertainment to you. If I was to drink and talk/play games Sorry... but I can't sit my ass down calmly. I rather drink/hit the club and dress classy than spend the whole night macking with people. You just call desperate if you do that. You're a wild seed that will never blossom into a flower.

Byebye Summer 09 =)

I currently had sushi 2 days in a row! I'm not a baller but guys are ballers for sushi. ;) I went to Barracuda on Thursday with Jay. I got a bento box and it gave me a big-o Stomach ache. It was Yummy tho. Chilled @ Serramonte with him. Who knows Vitamins can cost so much. Yea, he bought me some Spiderman Vitamins cause I'm lactose. =) Thanks. Friday, I hung out with a Fay Joo Jerk. We went to JT to the restaurant side. I saw the floating boat there and wanted to go 'cause I never went there after they remodeled. I got 1 plate 1st and that niggy got like 3 which he didn't even eat it yet. -.-!! He ate one of each then stuffed me with the left overs. D:!! We wasted 1 roll of eggs. It was the same food over and over, so he got the bill then we left after 4 plates. ROFL!! Sophia's Crepe line was long =( didn't get it. Hmm Headed to Richmond to Sakana Bune... they were Open =). Once again.... Fay Joo Jerk grabbed a lot of plates. Lol.. he ate one out of the two pieces. In the end, We had to finish his plates again! Hmm He wanted to get the black eggs... but I knew he was gonna force me into eating one, but I held him back from getting it. Sucker! Hmm He drove me home cause I gotta get ready @ 7 to go out again. Hmm I met a lot of new people.. and we went to San Mateo County Fair Baby!! My 1st time going there and its fun but way to cold!! I went on a spinning ride and I swear I'm addicted to it even tho I was scared at 1st. Good way to end Summer? Hmm Not yet... Poppin bottles @ 12 tonight @ OC. Its gonna be a choppin last Summer night of 09.

Memories of last year♥

WTF is wrong with her? Rumors was told, she gets drunk every other day. Ugh!!! and also DUI. Wow that one hard core bitch I live with. -.-# I seriously don't know what she has changed to be. Tell me my future won't turn out to be like hers.

I always play music while I'm blogging.
I feel like I forgot about you Blogger. I'm back to be your best friend. I just got home from a dinner @ club Proleng with a friend. I haven't express my feelings for a while =/.
1st thing I want to say, falling in love is scary. The feelings of being in love and getting hurt all the same time is like emotions you can never get rid of.
Last week I was talking to a friend and we were both reminiscing about last summer. I tend to take time to think about the past 'cause that's when we were all still free birdies and Kids. I still think about what would happen if my life never changed w/o the big impact. What would happen if we all stayed close friends? What would happen if I accepted him? What would happen if I wasn't so scared of being in love? As I was thinking back... I miss it so dearly. I miss last summer so much. Now, people seems different, even I know I changed.. I seem to be drifting apart with some friends. Looking back... ♥I still keep contact with Ruthie =) I miss Carita tho =(. I remember, I knew Carita from elementary school and we were friends till college. We use to talk about going to the beach and run on a sunny day. ♥We talked about bringing our future kids to the park and walking a future dog. I realize that I drifted with people that are in a relationship. I seem to be the person that a GF would get jealous of 'cause I was good friends with their boyfriends. Honestly...I don't want to be the victim. ♥I remember seeing K.I.T in my yearbooks. ♥♥I miss Soave's class. We would always mess around and always laugh in that class. The rubber band game, the bluetooth pictures haha, the condoms we take from Health Center, the lub we put in the chow mein. ROFL I miss the jokes from that class...Haha. Last but not least... the cheating we always do on test. ♥I miss Alex group that would always race after midnight and run red lights. I miss sitting in fast cars. I miss how I use to like driving♥. I miss how we went to twin peaks ♥. I miss the bad boys ♥. I liked how Judith&I surprise City kids in Astro class. And of course my chicken picture that Oliver has on his FB default picture. Memories ♥

Quote

"Sometimes we put up walls, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down."

-PostSecret




"You can never change a guy"

Hold on to it before It ends.

Give it a quick style run.
Party, Party, Party

Highlights:
Karaoke @ New Face
Party @ Mimi's
Clubbing event @ Mission Rock
Drinking @ OC Bar
Plenty of MJing nights

He is so innocent =x...
I liked the last dance. ;) I'll cherish it. It was Cute.
Best for last.

Sooner than Later.

Guys can never be 100% truthful, caring, and faithful.
Why do we fall into these traps? Because the opposite sex seduces us....

He is such a jerk, but why do I fall into it so easily?
Is it cause you do what bad boys does? I can tell you have no game, but your so caring. I can find someone better than you, but If I say I liked someone else right now I would be hurting you so badly. I can't do it.

You gave up so fast that the game didn't even start. Practice or Go home.

Why the fock are you chasing after me when I didn't show a tad bit of interest. Just cause you have nice cars. You are also nice. How can I get rid of you? Tone it down a bit to friend status.

Acting cold is the answer to my questions, so I wouldn't break your heart. I don't want to be in this collision.
Hearts are fragile. -.-
I can't commit to relationships[Period]
I play to much.


You can never reveal the inside of my image. Every time I step forward 1 step, you fail in providing the support I need. What kind of friend are you? Disgrace

Mistakes we make..

After July 4th weekend, my throat was killing me! #.#. Partied to hard and the result was that. My voice was raspy and it itched. I hated it. Idk if it was good or not, but it stopped me a week from drinking and partying. Actually, it didn't stop me from drinking ;b. My friend told me that if my throat hurts I should drink beer. Well.... to my own experience it doesn't work cause I did that on Tuesday night @ my Neighbors house. Hehe. I played beer pong with TJ and he sucked balls -.- Lol thats because he was buzzed. The next day, my throat was still hurting. Pass a couple of days and my throat didn't hurt anymore but I start coughing a lot. Its healing now tho =)

Judith, Mimi and I planned the surprise go away party for Allen and it was successful. My costco food planned was great =). I used my sisters costco card and we got Ribs, Honey BBQ Chicken Wings, Pizza, and a lot of free foods. Yummys c(8 I enjoy going to costco.... plus theres always bo-ji-fons there. The gifts that we got for Allen was some funny stuff. (; I got him moose cause he wanted it and he can reminisce his spikes. I hope he's touched by what we did for him. It was fun how we spent time with him before he left. Ice skating gave me a bruise on my ankle, right on the bone. -.- He left today @ 2 =(... I wonder how Vicki would be. =/... I know that feeling of missing/loosing someone. It sucks and devastating. I was never really close to Allen but helping to plan this event brought me the feelings of love and care that others should experience. I know it would mean a lot to him. Take care and Come back home safely Allen. =)

I'm gonna Bie Sun for a friend cause I don't pray. Lol
I wish that you would hold your head up high.
No matter what happens don't run away from your mistakes.
Its destine that it might happen or it might not.
Wish you the best of luck. =)

Hooked on it

I'm getting hooked on ...............MJ. I don't want to be like my dad... a gambler -.- He once again came home really late yesterday after MJing plus maybe the horse tracks. Martin came to pick me up around 9.. I don't really remember but I did remember my dad wasn't home. Lagged at my house cause I just finished doing laundry. I was hoping they would lagg at the theater, but surprisingly they didn't ha. We had to lagg cause the party @ Herman's was still going on. Supposesdly... there should be 8 or more playing MJ, but things came up so only Martin, Herman, Jiang and I played MJ @ Herman's house. At least we had 4, perfect legs. It was a fun mj night. I laughed till the point where my cheeks hurt... That usually don't happen unless theres something really hilarious. Two horny kids from a private school sure got jokes actually "Horny Jokes"... =). I was proud at myself guys... I was loosing but then I made a good ass comeback. I got 6 & 8 Fans + I Gee Maw! I deserve Joogoolicks c(; We end the game at 4am. Holy shit.. that was hella long. I came up 28 points and they are losers. I'm a WINNER. =DD Hehe.

I'm glad I didn't go to SJ yesterday.. I don't know what would have happen. =I. I canceled on two parties just cause I couldn't drink. =(... but in the end, it was worth it for MJ. Lol

Round 2

Thursday was Fun =). Here is 2nd round, chilled @ home till I get a surprise from a friend. He told me to be free in the next 2 hrs which will be 5. I got ready and waited for like an hr. Lagers ya know, he picked me up and I already guessed what the surprise was. Haha So we hit up the surprise and surprised him instead. This was not a legit surprise for me. I got played, Hmm after the mall I had to go to V-box for a friends bday party & to meet up Kelly. I saw SJ friends =)))) Andy, Kevin & David. I also saw Jessica, Jaimie, Patrick the star and Kevin tran. It seemed that the party was in the hall instead of the rooms. Hella fighting tho... real stupid. I saw the M'fucker Kevin Tran and he told me to give him a massage. Instead he was pretty wasted so he gave me one. His room was sort of fighting with Patrick's room =/ but things are cool now. He pulled me into his room and it was all guys O.O Fck right! He took my phone and tried to call himself but he called his friend instead. GG! Ugh!! Then this boy said, " If you give her your # and she calls you then you would know if she likes you or not." So true, Then this other guy gives me his phone. Diew! I'm not trying to be a sausage for 2 dogs. -.-! I just kept thinking to myself {what did I get myself into & I gotta find a way to get out!} Sigh... Kevin wouldn't let me go cause he had his hands on my shoulders. Then he told me to give him a kiss before I can leave. NO. He wanted to give me one. NONONO! He wanted to dance with me. HELLNO! Then -.-!!! Kelly came and save me after its too late. We left to meet up with Laura then to the clubs. Got some drinks and drank before we went in. The club event was at mission rock. Partied with Ban and his friends. I got a lap dance from a guy. LOL! We saw The League and that made it worthwhile. HOT!! Got home then KOed @ 4.
{Saturday, July 4 2009}
I was sleeping so lovely that morning when I received a call from Vicki at 10. She told me that they are outside. My 1st thought was WTH! No one told me about the timing. I woke up then got ready, took me 20 mins to get ready. Headed out to Oyster point for the BBQ. Played again, it wasn't @ South SF. Only food I ate was Chow mein, chips and drank soda Plus a waterfight. It sure was worth $10! The day before Martin & I planned to go Tanforan to return my dress, but I forgot my dress. After the water fight Martin, Vicki and I head to Tanforan. I thought we were going to come back to the BBQ but we end up not so we just chilled @ Tanforan and waited for Herman to get off work so we MJed at his house. Turns out the 2 clubbing nights, I lost 2 of my Burt's Bee D:. Left the mall, Herman & I went to Walgreen while Martin & Vicki went to get In&Outs Plus Krispy Creme. Meet @ Herman's house. His kitchen reminds me of Twilight. Pretty *.* Hmm ate then Hoi Toy. Left around 8:30 cause Herman got a bonfire to go to. The 3 pigs went to get food @ KFC.. I really wanted to watch the fireworks but we went to Ocean beach and the fireworks is on the opposite of Ocean beach. I didn't feel like going to the motel party cause ever time we plan something like that, It never turns out good. Then I found out they used the left over money from BBQ for the Motel. Wow! They should have use that money for gas so much more productive. I got a gut feeling that they might get kick out but worst than that, they checked out themselves and partied @ Amy's. Haha GG! Martin drove me home... and later my neighbor called me to come out when I was showering to give me a surprise. The time was already 11 something. I sneaked out the house and I met with my neighbor, happens so he got a new car and its a 335I. Yummy! He drove me 3 blocks to Tingley and Alemany to watch my other neighbors play with fireworks. Lol. We watched them and a cop just drives by hella fast. Not stopping to do anything o.O!! So he told me to get out the car with him while its double parked, we walked over and I watched how they did it. Looks kind of scary but fun. My neighbor was covering my ears while I lite them on the side walk. It was hella loud but hella Fun! I want to do it again =) Even though its small fireworks and you might think its nothing special but I cherished those moments in my heart. I was proud of myself, not being afraid. =) That 30 minutes made my night. I think he found out I didn't watch the fireworks cause every time I watch the fireworks I would report it to him and annoy him ♥ so he took me out instead and did something I never tried before. He's like the brother that I never had and is never there for me. Lol
{Sunday July 5 2009}
Supposedly it's my RELAX day.... turns out I thought wrong. I have another party to attend -.- w/ hardcore alcoholics! Sigh... Went to my aunties house @ Diamond heights and everyone was there. Friends & Families. My dads co-workers is like our own family members. Before the food, we popped champagne. Popped everything, Vodka, beer, wine and mixers. Not even funny! I have school the next day.. I rejected the wine cause Ho laun yum ah. I just took the corona. Dinner... cling, cheers, cling, cling. Hmm... I drank 1 bottle and I didn't want to drink it anymore cause it gave me a lot of gas =p. Eee it was gross! I mixed beer and wine and turns out you get plastered easier like that. They peer pressure me to drink all the second one but I just couldn't. Jing yeye had to leave early, so my auntie needed a partner to drink so I chai mui with my auntie and she Looses HAHa! Man, she actually told me to bring friends next time when we go drink -.-. Wow. It gotta be hardcore drinker friends. I row sham bow with my baby cousin. She's only 5 too. -.- Horrible! I loose I drink beer, she loose she eats potatoes and drink milk. Finally I finished it. My baby cousin was so cute. She wanted to eat potatoes, so she purposely lost so she can eat it. We left @ 12 and I got ready for bed and KOed.

July 4th Weekend

Ima party hardcore this weekend. With anyone, any group... um scratch that, not with the Washgroup ..Ha I'm down to earth for anything. Edco class told me that I'm a risk tacker. Hay, You do live once, why worry about the small little things? Just chillaxe. Don't be so uptight. I could have went to Lake Tahoe with my sister & her friends for the July weekend =,[ but there was no room for me in the hotel. I had plans tonight anyways and I shouldn't be a flaker. I stay true to my words. It feels like I'm only making plans with guy friends but I kept flaking out on them. UGh I hate that about myself. Promises are promises. Ok, I must work and clean. I feel so busy making plans and I feel horrible for flaking every plan I make. Hopefully, I can scratch one of the plans on my list tonight. Hmm What should I do on July 4th? Should I hang with new people since my group of friends aren't doing anything =/ and some just don't party. -.- Sucks balls to decide. Shower & Out. I also must chill where there is no money involve.

I drove to CT to meet up Kelly around 8 something after my dinner. There was traffic =(! I attempted to park on the left side of the street, shit it was hard cause it was on little hill plus I never parked on a left side before. I hate parking on hills. I tried to find parking on Washington street but turns out there is street cleaning. End up just driving to Richmond and parked @ Smart&Finals. Met her friends Tony&Johnson near 9Longtong and we went to 2nd Ave. to get drinks. Tony's car was yummy c(=, IS350. Lawl...Went into 9Longtong to meet her friend Laura so she can drive us to Glaskat. Got to Glaskat, before we went in, we drank in the car. There was Bacardi Gold& Smirnoff Apple. Poor Kelly, yacked her dinner out =(. Got in and there wasn't much people there so we went to the ____ room to wait for the guys and people. I saw Jay like finally. The Academy class of 09 was there. We waited for the guys and it turns out to be like 10 just like a gang and we got to the dance floor. I danced with the girls then I danced with Johnson&Darren and then Darren like twice but with Johnson more. It feels kinda weird that random guys just approach behind you and holds you tight and starts dancing. Later on that night, I can tell who I danced with and who I didn't. Some guys just can not dance!! I saw Lily, my babe! I met some new people but I don't remember there names considering that I'm bad with names. There was a white promoter who saw me dancing with a guy and Kelly was in front of me. I think he wanted some but I kept saying No. This is like the 1st time I danced with hella guys this night. Estimation of around 5-10. I had hella fun tho. I think I taught Johnson how to dance better, hes a cutie. It turns out I danced with William in the Academy class which also I went to chinese school with. After the clubs we went our separate ways. Laura's car went to SomWo to get some food. The rest went home. Dropped kelly home then me to Smart&Finals to get my car. I love these kind of nights. New people+ New Personalities=Trouble.

Summer days 8}

I just woke up from a long day last night. I neeed to shower! I gotta do hw =I
Thursday, June 25th 2009
Hm... Bussed to school, I don't think I will get any free rides from my sister anymore. She has been out every single night out to po and don't come home so she won't be able to wake up. Bena, Clauren and I got outa class half an hr early cause we got a test. We waited in the car for Mimi, Oliver and Vicki. It was my Belated very late birthday celebration. Tehehe We all squished into one car. I had to hide -.- from cameras on Geneva&Mission. Lol Got to Linda's house and met up with Jason's car which has Allen, and Tpee. In Zhi's car we had Martin, Linda, Clarence, and Raymond. We headed to Palace BBQ Buffet by 2 and the restaruant closes at 3. The ribs were good.... but I felt hella bloated like I had a kid inside. The beef was ok la. I enjoyed the ribs the most oh plus the rice drink.. yummys. We played I never with everyone so we don't waste food. Lol I'm up for like 4 pieces, but SHhhh!! While eating... I hear and see suspecious things -.O, but I had my eyes and ears opened. Linda was looking for knives, whatever after you said you were full! You can't play me! After I Never, they sang to me. Oh so sweet and pop the cake in the box. Lol, instead we left cause they kicked us out. We ended up eating the cake outside of BigLots. We got a Big group of a Lot of peoples. The cake was so pretty *.* I didn't want to chop it up. Thanks BaoBei, I know you got it. Headed to Valley Fair.. and was not successful in finding anything silver. OhWells. To Linda's and MJed a little. Then Homesies.
Friday, June 26 2009
Hmm school, lagged and I saw Andrew Gantan =). We were at the parking lot dribbling balls and messed around. Lol. Shopping with Martin and I found my Dress but no SILVER. HAHA hmm then home to shower then out to watch a movie. My friend had to make up for my birthday. We watched The Proposal. It was really funny in only Some parts...the end was predictable but sweet. Then In&Outs. I craved for In&Outs when I was in China... finally I got it.
Saturday, June 27 2009
Oo0o Wee... Formal Dinner ladies and gentlemen. We all dressed nicely, but failed on Silver =) This dinner was specialized for the 3 marines that are Allen, Jason, and Tony. We ate dinner @ this Ethiopian restaurant. Lets not even mention about the food. After dinner some people said Kiki's but HAHA no one went. End up lagging for so freaking Long just on the corner of the cross walk. I suggested to Karaoke when we stood on the cement grounds of 9th and Clement when the sun was setting. -.-! I find no one listens to my ideas even my parents! Geez, I was so fcking tired cause of my heels. I despise lagging in heels for over maybe 30 minutes everywhere. Since I was out dressed so nice of course I would make an impression of this night and to make it a Blast for the past. Of course karaoke would be fun cause drinks are compliments of it and watching movies like really? I can watch that for free. Until I lagged enough, I saw Bena's car =) so I swooped into it. It felt so good =}....I have a tendancy to dance when I hear high beat music. I think GPS should have a karaoke thing. Hmm that would be a great invention. Dialed digits.... met @ New Face. Kelly&I went to the bathroom and this one girl was gone in front of the bathroom. Eeee Then we hit up room 8 cause I saw Daivy. Lol and he was tipsy I may say. I met Luciano for the 1st time even tho I know his sister from middle school. Since it was his party @ the other side, we wouldn't reject someone that is risking his life for this country. One of the Fay Jai brought us beer. So nice, but not enough =) Just cause they are kind we let them come to our room cause no guys in our room parties so whatever. The guys in our room do not party, do not drink, and does not sing. =/ no fun. Like 5 random guy got Low in our room. Hella funny!! I opened up the beer and I don't know who else drinks beer or know how to chai mui so I started to Chai Mui with Daivy or was it Lucie. I drank like 2 shots of Remy and yea I needed OJ. I kept loosing cause I couldn't hear him and I think I drank a whole bottle of beer #.#. Dam and I didn't wanna play with Fay Jai cause who knows how much tolerance he can handle. Got some alcohol in the system and I was ready to dance/sing! Sing my heart out =D!! Tired of my heels so I took it off and started dancing on the Sofa's Lol then others got up and we all danced. I think I broked one of the Sofa's =x. It got so hot hot, I was so sweating! Haha It was hella fun tho =). I saw Jason Lin.. hmm interesting hes not going to SJ anymore. haha just like me. I believe this is the best of our after party for Formal dinner so far. We gotta top this for the next formal dinner. >.^ After karaoke we went to 37degrees with everyone else. Ate chatted and lagged outside again. Reminder: Wear some sort of tights to cover undies to prevent paparazzi/perverts.

Fathers Day =)

Monday was school. My sister drove me to school and my Poli Sci class watched a movie. It was about propaganda. Boring ass shit! Then to Econ, I always find Econ kinda fun and funny. I actually like how Whitehead teaches, but he gives way tmi on sex and what not. =/. Dumb up for him quitting smoking =). After class, Bena, Clauren, and I went to the Bookstore hoping to return books. I departed with other people cause I had dinner. I just went to DT and turned in my apps. Wish me luck on them =). I don't have much faith in them tho. Went straight to CT. I got my hair washed then drove my auntie to Trader Joes to get Wine and other alcholic drinks for the dinner. Got back and I went to pick up the cake with my baby cousin and Auntie. I saw Rays group @ CT in front of Sweetheart of course. Sam's car was broken and there was like a gang of guys in black and white near the car watching it being towed away. Went back to the shop and got a haircut. While I was getting my hair cut. My auntie Lana, Suanna, and Jing yeye plus uncle De started a early party. My dad went to my Uncles to get a duck and some chicken. The aunties opened up the wine and started drinking it. After my hair cut, I went to the restaurant with my dad and baby cousin. Took them a while to get down there. Dinner started @ 7:30 and drinks were being opened of course. There were Wine, Henny, and Remy. Oh yea... they would drink wine 1st and save the best for last. Soup came and everyone started pouring drinks onto wine glasses. Uncle David walked over to my table and poured me a glass of wine -.- WtShitonCrack. It was up to the top of the glass my Niggy! Whatever, I played it cool and accepted that. Half way to dinner, I hear my auntie Suanna telling my baby cousin to tell me to go over the other table. o.O Woahwoahwaoh. Hold your horsies. I did not just hear that. Instead, they came over to my table hovering over me telling me to drink. The excuse they use was "I have to learn how to drink wine so I won't get raped" Pretty much given. I rejected a couple of times, but to make them shut up I dranked a lot. It was Foo.. =[... Stuffed rice into my mouth to wash the taste. They came the 2nd and 3rd time. 4th time was funny. They were screaming in the restaurant, some foreigners came in with kids so they left my table quick style. Lol!!!Cake time! Distributed cakes to everyone. I made the wrong choice and sat next to Jing yeye while eating my cake. Oh boy! She turns to me and says "Oh DIANA" YUM la!!! Oh hell no. So I chi Mui =). I won of course! She thought I cheated so we roshambo! I still WON HAha. I lost twice and chugged the glass of wine and shots of Henny. Remy is so strong.. couldn't handle that. Pretty much all my aunties were plastered. We all arrived home safely under DUI.

You were special in my eyes.

Hello stranger. Its been so long. I don't even think I know you anymore. Where did this friendship go? Kinna feels like those times we spent together was just a waste. I don't even know. I'm just bitter about it. You're a disappointment to me. The one thing I didn't expect to ever happen between us happened. The statement about expecting the unexpected is true. It's disappointing when the one thing in your life that was the most promising & most stable becomes something so distant, so unstable, and so indifferent. God dammit, its complicated. I highly doubt there's gonna be a chance for us to ever mend things between us cause the past is still gonna be there. You put this situation upon me like its my fault. I do regret what I said when I drunk dialed you. I hope for the best and that is for you to forgive me. If we decide to go on our seperate ways, I admit, I wouldn't be the happiest kid on the block but everything happens for a reason.... Right? I hate this month.

Hello 19 year old. Hi 2009

Happy 19th Birthday to me. Another year has passes by. I always dreaded the 14th of June because year after year, its was just never a good one. I really expected this year to be no different, just a regular day that passes by. I do find it funny on how some acquaintance friends actually met me up in person/call me to say Happy Birthday and cared more instead of some friends that I generally hang out with that just txt or fb the bday wish. This year was crazy, I regret the things that I've done. I just expected a dinner w/ friends but I never came to planning it and I was jetlagged. I got home around 3am from dessert. I was in the room just fixing all the junks and I heard laughing, talking and turbo cars outside of the house, So I looked out and it was a bunch of people getting out there cars. The door opened and it was my sister w/ people coming in all tipsy. All the guys were holding all kind of bottles and packs of beer even patron, that was the 1st gift =}. That scared me a little bit. I started drinking w/ my sisters friends and it so happens that Virginia's birthday was on the 12, so it was a shared party. We end up playing 5 games of beer pong, tons of chi mui, kissing card game, circle human hoolahoop, flip cup. Literally was F'ed up for the whole day. We drank from 3am-6pm. I never drank so much in my whole life. I fell asleep maybe for a 3 hrs at most. After waking up, it was 3pm, We continued part 2. -.- I notice I don't have any appetite these past days =/. I haven't been eating a lot for dinner and I don't even know why I even drank with a stomach empty. I shouldn't have drank at all. Regretted on some of the things I've done. I was told that I was cuddling with someone o.O. Diew, there was a lot of hot tempting guys that was from baseball =X..I don't mind cuddling w/ them. What broke me was the news about how I was macking w/ James. What? Really. I swear its not true cus everyone was fcked up. "OhWells" Getting wasted on my birthday, yacking everywhere, forgetting everything, having a badass hangover in the morning was a 1st regret but also thats how to party like a rockstar. This was a birthday I didn't really hope for.
One year older, wiser, and Crazier.

But I must say, it was missing one thing.

China 09

It is the 13th and currently Jet lagged.
On Tuesday May 26th, I arrived @ the SF airport w/ my fambam. We said our Gbyes and went in to the check-in. Hm waited for 2 hrs before our flight. So all I did was txt and listen to music. I was txting non-stop that my cell phone turn extremely hot hot. I only told some people I have been keeping in touch that I'm leaving SF. Anyways, the plane ride was super long. Crazy shit. Sat there for hours uncomfortably with a mask on my face -.-, but I watched Bride Wars and I loved it. It's a really good movie, I suggest any ladies to watch it. I feel asleep while attempting to watch Pink Panther 2, maybe 'cus I was really tired. Hm.. also the restroom are very small, even smaller than elevators! The plane foods are not good. Thats all I remember from my plane ride to China. Oh yea, there was a kid that was coughing at the airport and we thought he might be kidding around cus of the H1N1 situation. As we settled on our seat, I looked in front and there was a kid. Bad luck I must say, he was really coughing -.- so I must wear the mask for my safety. Mask+glasses+headphones =not a good combo.
Arrived @ the HK airport, got a ride across the border to China and waited for the bus to HoiPing. It was my first time seeing the hand wheel on the right side of a car. Sigh.. it was a long ride -.- then finally got to our destination and it started to rain -.-. My auntie picked us up and the funny uncle drove our luggages to our granparents house. Later that day, we checked into a 3 star hotel 'cus it was near our grandparents house. The city was janky, old peoples, mid aged people. I sprained my ankle just a little 'cus the road is uneven. Theres even holes on the ground so I had to limp around. The couple of days was hot, so I wore a tank and shorts out. Big regret, cus I don't fit in and bunch of o.o. Eating was scary! I ate out everyday for dinner. Literally ate at all resturants they have in HoiPing. Once, we ate next to Huk Sai Wu's =o. They all wore black. Lol. Hm What did I do on the 1st day? hmm...
{Hair Wash +Massage}
I got a massaged hair wash. That was hella comfy!! It lasted for 30mins and I got a mandarin girl. I almost did that every other day...and each time was a girl that spoke mandarin. The last time I got a hair wash was from a guy and he spoke conto, Finally!!
{2 Different Hot Springs}
1st activity we did was Hot spring ^3^!It was hella fun!!! I enjoyed it super duper much. Daily routine was Yum Cha, and dinner out at resturants. Some other day we went to Guangzhou to shop and walk around. It was so humid there 'cus of hella people and cars. Hmm didn't buy much besides umbrella. Hm another day we went to another different Hot spring w/ different kinds of hot spring. There is green tea, rose, licorice, and etc.
{Filming movies}
We went to Ging sing to look @ buildings that movies/dramas were filmed at. On the same day that we went, there was a filming of a China movie. We bought tickets to where the 18's and 19's movies were filmed. You can imagine the place to be janky. We explored all the buildings and then we went to watch where the movie/drama was filmed at. After the exploring, we went to watch people act. We couldn't get close, so we stood from far away and there was actors selling pictures. We just stood there and talk to them.. When there was a break we went in to take pictures w/some what famous actors and actresses. They were hella funny, cussing in chinese fighting over to take pictures with us. Lol. It was suppose to be us fighting to take it w/ them instead it was the other way around. I took pictures with ancient cars and tankers. Pretty awesome. My grandma said it was one of her happiest days of her life =).
{Village}
I went to my mom's village. It wasn't that bad, 'cus I played w/ babies and kids. They were cute ^3^. Saw the new house.
{Soy Low}
Another awesome activity we did was Soy low. It's this place where you can swim, sauna, pool, ping pong, sleep, watch movies and tv, massage, arcade, internet, and eat buffet for 24 hrs. My sister and I hella messed around hitting the ping pong balls off the line and we ran hella far to get the balls. Which made us sweat a lot ha. I was playing on the matching mahjong arcade by myself. One of the bus boys stood on my left telling me which ones to match. Then later another one stood on my right. There was two voices on each of my side telling me what to match. Lol. I thought it was funny, 'cus they supposedly be working, but they were playing with there brains. I enjoyed the Sauna. It was steamy.. kind of hard to breath but it was comfy. I was being burnt from the hot water dripping.
+The day before we left HoiPing, we went to get our love, education, wealth read. I liked it. The last day was just as good as the other days.
{HK}
Stayed @ Lamghan hotel a five star hotel. It was a really five start hotel. This is our last hotel we are staying at and its the 3rd one. We just walked around Shanghai street and get to know the neighborhood. The next day, we went on a tour, it included Victorian Peak,

Last week of SJ

Right when Finals began.. I received a bad news while I was studying. STUDYING too. This news can be recieved as bad/good news. My sister called me and she told me when my last day and final, I told her and she said in a weird voice, "Be ready for China after you finals." First thought "Wth" and I was sorta happy for a second!! I never ever thought about going to China. I thought it was fishy so I questioned with a Why? The reason was because of my grandpa. He was not doing well and you can say it seemed like he was near death. Big feeling of sadness,
Will be Continued later. Dinner @ HK Langham Place Hotel. I'm loving it.
So.... I never really continued the after I left. Ha this was 2 days after ^ that short blog. Ughhh oh So I studied my butt off! And some paid off & procrastination kills. I got a 3.57 ^o^. WhooHoo, but I failed one class 'cus I didn't try. Now I regret it. & I'm stressing over that now. Blah. Hm after my finals I supposedly had to stay in SJ for 2 more days till Friday. I had the honor to eat w/ Donald Fagot Fang @ dinner HAHA Sike, He had the honor to eat w/ me. Hm I watched Donald Fagot Fang suffer by packing. MUAHAH! He had to help his roommate clean and we found a left over condom rapper behind the roommates table. o0o lala. Then I had to help him bring the stuff down to his car and I met his parents. They are soo Nice, but Idk what happen to him. Mmmhm Bummer. Ha Now, Hopefully I don't bump into him in SF 'cus that would be so sad ={. A lot of people left =/ After Donald I helped Lily move. I was so tired already!!so I decided to come back on Thursday night 'cus it was Hella scary sleeping alone on my floor with who knows who is still @ school. I got a ride back on a Hummer looking like very roomie car. Then headed out on Friday afternoon w/ my sister. I was so impatient w/ my mom that morning cus I had a scheduled time to move out & I gotta be there by that time, if not then I would get charged. I woke up @7 to CT, dropped my dad @ work, waited for my mom to buy fruits and what not, then drove her to 6th street to buy flowers for my sisters grad! I hate driving there so bad! I dropped her off. It was hectic & scary, so many cars, almost all one ways plus it was my 1st time driving there. I swear I did illegal U-turns near a PoPo station and there was full of police cars everywhere. I had to drive around so many times going through allys & one way streets to get on that specific flower shop corner to park @ the parking lot. It might sound easy to get there but Hell No! The freeway exit is right in front of the flower shop. Fast cars and double solid lines on all streets. So complicated!!! When I got in front of it, I had to PAY! -.- so I was like ugh no.. and do I need a card? 'cus I see people swiping a pink card. Gah. I parked next door @ the pottery shop. I was hoping it would be easier to find parking around that 6th street. I wanted to go in to pick out laces =/. Hm.. I was very impatient that day 'cus my mom was lagging so much. Lagged @ the barber shop, CT, and flower shop. I was going to leave her @ CT, but didn't want her to bus so I waited for 2 hrs. She also knew that I have to get back to SJ around 12. Checking out time was 12:30! I just hold on to that temper, plus my sister was rushing me since she finished her final @ 11 -.-. Got home around 1 then ate and relaxed. Headed to my sisters graduation @ City then dinner on Ocean. The resturant on Ocean street always plays the basketball games. Lol Next 2 days I organized my closet and that took like 5 hrs and I packed. Waited till Tuesday.

M.I.A.

Boyy.....=X Secrets are to be kept. Promise me that.
The ones that I haven't been talking to, you guys would be wondering where I am at.
I wonder why I haven't been talking to you too =?
Wonder your mind wherever it goes.
Anyways, GBye SF for awhile.
Take Care everyone.
The title gave it away & You won't be able to contact me. Peace V=).

-♥Diana

Minna's Graduation

Currently eating a jong. Summer has not yet started. I still have to deal with some school related requirements for city. -.- ah Poo. But I do love plane rides. So... two days ago I was kind of angry, annoyed, stressed. sigh. 'Cus I had to rush back to SJ so I can pack up all my stuff from sj 'cus I went home on Thursday. I was kind of scared to sleep alone in Joe West. Everyone that live near my suite are gone. Since my friend offered me a ride back home, I took it. I got home in a Hummer look alike truck. It was roomy and pretty nice. Anyhoo, I rushed back and got everything in the car right on time so I didn't get a charge. Whoo. Hmm... Got home and unpacked just a little bit. Helped my mom made jongs. By the time it was 4 we headed to city so we watched my sister&princess graduate. It was F*ckin boring. Speeches, more speeches. During this super boring part, my mom told me to go home 'cus my dad forgot his keys, but I had them the whole time cus I took the car. HA got home, opened the door and then got back to city in a quickstyle. As I was finding parking I saw a cop! I didn't stop for the stop sign but he just smiled at me. HA =) I saw Jimmy, tall Kev, muffin boy, and Tony at the door. They are so chill ah..... =) Feel so relaxed with them ah.. Haha So I lagged there before I went back in. By the time I got back to the gym, my sister already walked pass the stage. -.- Great timing. I wanted to watch it... =/. There was a couple of bo-ji-fons that graduated haha. Took pictures... then off to the resturant on Ocean. Too bad the guy with jokes was not working. We were trying to hook him up with a asian girl from Hk. Lol my dad said guys with big nose is good. The guy said, "Bay gaw di law lay cup chun ah?" That got us laughing so hard! We are regulars there so we are kool w/ them plus my parents got connection so we always get free food and dessert. Minna & I always get Mango pudding.. yummy. After dinner, went home and it was around 12. I helped my mom finish the batch of ingredients for jong. -.- so tired... then made the sweet ones. I stayed up pretty late & eventually I fell asleep on the sofa again. Two days in a row already. Now currently, my sister & mom fell asleep on two of the sofas. The sofa is comfy I must say. Gnight

I'm so busy. WTF!
But I got time for FUNFUNFUN =))))..... w/o you before Tuesday.

2 more weeks till school ends

So... Yesterday & today, I went to all my classes. Proud la? I took a test today and a Final. I think I did decent but hopefully I pass both. =). Got to be optimistic about it and not pessimistic. Tests that I need to worry about are English, Astro and Musc. =(....They are coming up very soon. I feel content but kind of lost in my emotions. I was looking forward for summer & summer school but all the classes that I wanted are closed. I was planning to take yoga since last year with Martin but no I don't have a chance of taking it now. =/ How did taking yoga class spread so fast to others? I didn't want to take Yoga just 'cus some people are taking it, but I wanted to take it for myself. "OhWells" Screwed for English too. Reminder to self: Never ask someones help from City. Getting hopes up will get shot down after wards. Now I don't look forward for summer school =/. I might take classes @ Skyline or CSM but its so far. I would feel like a lost freshman all over again, but at least I can meet new people & I nvr went to skyline before, but I also live super close to City. That would be something different tho. In jan thinking about the summer would be a relief... but as it comes closer it feels hectic.. Boy. These next 5 weeks would be packing packing packing. Non stop. I do look forward to some things but it doesn't make me happy... Just 'cus the reason isin't great. Hmm Summer.... June is coming up. Ima club non stop just to stop my mind from wondering and thinking a lot. I gotta find some hard core clubbers. Overall.. This summer is gonna be alright I hope.. Is it? blah.. =I.

Did you forget?

Did you forget? ...about me.

I had such a weird dream this morning. There was a party and the people who were there were all my friends from middle school. We were in someones house and there was a Karaoke room. All the guys was inside and it was a super hot day. Apparently there was Joo goo lick... and I had to put them in the freezer. Edward told me to put his wallet in there. Lol.. We all were tipsy by the 2nd hour and somehow they went out to smoke later in front of there cars. Hmm then all of a sudden the all ran out cus I think someone was coming. After a little while Edward txt me saying he forgot something so he gotta come over. He hugged me for a whole 5 minutes cus I remember I was looking at my phone, just watching it tick away but didn't want it to end & he was kind of wasted. He talked a lot then went straight to the fridge and I was like o.O. Are you getting more patron? Instead he opened up the fridge and took his wallet out. I was laughing so bad. He said he purposely left his wallet here so he can come see me.

Did you forget about us?
I didn't talk to you over a month.
I miss talking to him. ='[.. It does hurt to be scared and afraid.
All the past is just a lesson that we've learn. Don't forget*!!

Love your grandparents =) cus I do.

I watched this short clip in class today called "Peege." The clip shows how the grandma provided a lot of love to the grand kids. When all the grand kids grow up the whole family went to visit her during Christmas at the Old people house under the care from nurses and doctors. Everyone was emotional and teared a lot when they were talking to her, asking her things, but she gave short responses. They all left but one of the grandson stayed to have a chat with her and reminisce. He was talking to her and also responding for her. It gave a sense of how real things are and we should appreciate the love we all recieve and deliver. After he leaves the room, Peege receives the love she provided. She was old but she was really smiley. I like the short clip a lot.. It reminded me of my grandma a lot. I appreciate the things I have. For instance, some people wouldn't go yum cha, go visit or even see their grand parents. If you don't provide enough love you also won't receive any. Same with relationships. You don't provide, you won't get shit back... What do you expect? Not everything is free.
Its my turn to step it up and give more love to the ones that always loved me and gave me Faith.

Lost in Translation

{Monday}
Currently now. I am chatting with my cousin from China. I am guessing half of what he is saying cus it was in simple chinese.... I also used a translator. If not then It would take days and dayss...
Huang Jia Li (黃嘉麗) is me. Its my mandarin name sounds like jelly. He also uses these icon thingys.. which it makes it harder for me to understand. Lost in translation. Gah, but here it goes
源氏 says:
HI~~!!!
Huang Jia Li says:
Hello =)
源氏 says:
还没有睡觉啊？
Huang Jia Li says:
沒有
Huang Jia Li says:
我不知道如何輸入中文 haha.
源氏 says:
是什么输入法的？？？？
Huang Jia Li says:
我使用traslator V^o^
源氏 says:
。。。 或者 网上下载sugou软件是用拼音输入法的

Huang Jia Li says:
但我不知道拼音
源氏 says:
。。。。。
源氏 says:
那 是用拼画打的是不是?
Huang Jia Li says:
o.O?
Huang Jia Li says:
你说什么
源氏 says:
是什么时候回来大陆玩啊？
Huang Jia Li says:
我不知道 ='[....
源氏 says:
现 机票那么便宜。。。回来玩吧。。。。哈哈
Huang Jia Li says:
我真的很想去
Huang Jia Li says:
我知道
Huang Jia Li says:
但我不想回来仅..其恐怖和孤独
源氏 says:
呵呵。。。。现 广州蛮多东西玩的。。。。
Huang Jia Li says:
你使声音如此之大
Huang Jia Li says:
HAHA
Huang Jia Li says:
我想去香港和吃
源氏 says:
买名牌的东西香港很 ，但讲到吃。。吃 广东啊
Huang Jia Li says:
所有的朋友说，香港拥有非常好的食品
Huang Jia Li says:
好 la
源氏 says:
回来， 带 去吃 东西。。。
Huang Jia Li says:
好的 =DDD
源氏 says:
不知道吗？？广东人除了钢筋水泥不吃之外什么都吃的
源氏 says:
所以说广东很多美食的。。。有时候 想不到东西都有得吃
Huang Jia Li says:
=O
Huang Jia Li says:
如此肮脏
源氏 says:
呵呵。。那不是脏，那是美食。。。 品赏过就知道了。。。哈哈
源氏 says:
吃过禾虫没有。。。 看它的样子， 就不想吃，但是吃了一口 就知道它味道了。。
Huang Jia Li says:
Ohhh
源氏 says:
美国那边的NDSI多少钱一部啊?
Huang Jia Li says:
我不知道
源氏 says:
....
源氏 says:
平时不玩游戏的吗？
Huang Jia Li says:
什么是NDSI?
Huang Jia Li says:
有时。不经常
源氏 says:
是一部游戏机来的~~!!
源氏 says:
现 努力存钱买啊。。。但是这里太贵了。。。买了没有钱交房租。。。哈哈
Huang Jia Li says:
ohhh
Huang Jia Li says:
我从来没有听说过 o.O
源氏 says:
最近美国流行猪流感。。 们没有怎样吧？？？？
源氏 says:
看新闻 们那里蛮严重的
Huang Jia Li says:
我知道..我看了电视当我回家
Huang Jia Li says:
是坏在我国？
源氏 says:
们那里啊。。。
Huang Jia Li says:
我在加利福尼亚州的圣何塞
Huang Jia Li says:
San Jose
Huang Jia Li says:
我去那里学院
源氏 says:
。。。。
源氏 says:
那里坏境还可以吧？
Huang Jia Li says:
我不明白
源氏 says:
学院的环境
Huang Jia Li says:
ughh...... no

Word of Wisdom.

Be a good cheer.
Do not think of today's failures, but of the success that may come tomorrow. =)
You may have set yourself a difficult task but you will succeed if you persevere, and you will find a joy in overcoming obstacles.
Dont be continually serious; occasionally everyone should play with mud pies, or blow bubbles or lie on the ground and look at the clouds, but do these activities for the joy of the moment.
Be glad of LIFE because it gives you the chance to LOVE and to work and to Play and to look at the Stars.

If you don't know where your going, any wind will take you there.

Baby puppies.

This blog entry is requested from a reader.
On Thursday night... I found out at 10 that I have a test the next day which was Friday. GAH! I didn't know about it because I haven't been going to class =x. Give me a beating Seriously! I also suck in going to school! I can't wake up to txt nor the alarm clock. So.... I studied till 3am. It was horrible... I was so tired and sleepy. Friday morning around 8 came. I woke up to the alarm some how every time I wake up from the alarm, I move my body then ..Sleep I go again. Sleep is my temptation. Sooo as 10:20 came. Judith called me to wake me up and =O I missed my test but thats ok... Cus I get to go to her office hour now and take the test. It wasn't great. It was noisy... teachers kept talking. Then it was 11 something. I planned to bus back with Judith... and Oliver. Ohwells. So after I took my test.. I went to DC cus I was super hungry. I saw Peter there and we ate together. After Breakfast, he was going to Macys so he gave me a ride to Cal-Train. I told Oliver to wait for me 1 minute after they took off for the Cal-train. =( So I got there like 5 mins after the train left. Sigh.. Then I gotta cal-train by myself. Got to DT. Met Tony Peng up at Urban and chilled. I had to return some expensive sandals =[..We walked around.... waited until he went to work. Then I left to Stones. I got there and 1st person I saw was Alvin =). Then I was going to walk in ladies foot locker but ah I don't see my sister. In my mind I was thinking is she tricking me? Then I found out shes next door at WetSeals working. Duh. I got there early and I met her co-workers. =) Some friendly and some aren't. I had to wait 45 mins so she just told me to shop around. I got some things but she was in a rush so I didn't get it =(. I was about to have new jeans, shirt, tank and shorts. D: Ohwellsies. So then after my sister got off she went straight to Ladies foot locker.. Met her co-worker. Hes a Bo-ji-fons with very BO friends too =). I was picking out shoes and kind of gave her a hard time =X. Then I went to get her Starbucks&pretzels. I went to Bath&Body works cus she gave me a coupon for free candles. The sales associate was so nice and she helped me by referring me to good scents. I got lotion and free candle. Then headed and gave it to my sister. Then home i went. I ate dinner. Then out I went again. Martin came to pick me up and we had a interesting chat in the car. Updated each others. Bowled at Classic cus it was for Raymonds birthday. I haven't bowled for so long. I miss it. I did the Diana roll around head. Saw some decent Bo-ji-Fons. haha then lagged in the Parking Lot as usual. I met Claurens friend but totally forgot his name already. Amy brought up chilling at her house even tho people would be toxicated o.O. Instead we all made a Starbucks run. Then home it went.
{Saturday} Slept in till 12. Ah... Felt good. I was so bored at home tho. My computer at home is in a Coma. I bet it still is. Hmm... So I sat in front of the TV and watched tv. I didn't watch tv for hella long. Caught up. Around 2 went to the Manila Super to shop for groceries. Spent some quality time with the family. Ate dinner..I left the house at 10 or 11. Drove to Martins cus he wanted to talk. I had so much going in my mind also. Saturday is the day I gotta find answer to give him. Sigh... Went to his house and Melody peeed on the rug once she saw me. LMBO!! I want a puppy. Like Baby Clifford but just not red. I finally used the computer... Then we went out for Dessert @ 100% Sweet Cafe. The waiter was really nice =). I would be out all the time if it was warm outside with a full moon =). Gorgeous. It would be a good day only if it was warm to have deep convos just like Tpee said. =). I had those days in SJ when it was so hot in my room. I left around almost 2. I drove around sunset taking long routes than short ones.. Lol I some how missed driving but then not really. Just when I went through a short cut going home, he txted me asking me my answer. -.- replied, Got home then KOed.
{Sunday}
Showered. Packed. David drove me back =). YEEEE

o.O.....O.o

State of feeling: Confused!
I'm confused o.O....

This guy asked me to be his date for Sailor Ball.... Sailor Ball is a semi-formal ball for his Frat. [1st thing it reminded me was last semester how this other guy asked if he can Serenade to me for a Frat thing, but I felt sorry for rejecting him =[. I was too shy and we were all new.] I just wished I wasn't the only girl you asked to the Sailor Ball. Now, If I don't go you wouldn't go so Ugh! I don't really want to go because Idk your pledge bros. I just think it would be awkward. I hope this is on a friends basis too and nothing more. I hope that If I do go... I won't give you much hope and this friendship would stay the way it is. I don't want to hurt you. I only have two day of a decision.

Fay Joo: I thought your gonna stop smoking 'cus I was keeping you Happy? What happened? I want you to stop smoking not for me but for yourself. You were mean, now nice and now your a Jerk. I give up 'cus I failed.

Ice Cream =p

Today, I learned how to make ice cream! d= Yum....not really =I. Lol... Did the usual things today... @ Dinner time things were very unexpected. HAha I saw people that I usually don't see during dinner time. Maybe a coincident but idk. I ate dinner with Lily&Ken. I saw Willson, Masaki, Samson, and Kelvin. Stupid Masaki kept throwing stuff at me across the tables. RAwr. After we all finish... Willson, and Samson wanted to make ice cream so they went and Masaki stayed and told me to make it with him. I saw there was even count but Masaki had to force me to make it with him. gah. I guess I will stay. It was fun talking to Masaki and Samson. They always joke around. I found out some news... =o Shocker welll not really. I need to wash my face cus Masaki squeezed m cheeks. I was really close of getting a tattoo under my armpit from Samson. Joke. Waited in line and I won in Row Sham Bo so Masaki had to be blind folded. I laughed so hard when Masaki was making ice cream. Someone put ice behind his back to KAKTAKAK. I told him what to do and he had to do them blind folded. I was really clueless giving him directions. Instead of scooping ice, he used his bare hands. -.- Last part I turned around and saw Samson.... He made such a big mess putting the cookies in the zip lock bag. It was so funny. After we finish, I played cold potatoe with Masaki... Then I saw Hum Lun and Michelle. Ugly shit made faces at me. Samson&Kelvin made one too and they just kept freezing me with the bags. They took turns putting it on my arms cus I was wearing a tank. The bags was filled with ice and it was soo COLD. The result of our hard work was kind of tasteless. Not enough cookies. Hah. But overall it was fun. I think I know how to make it now.
Half bag of ice. 6 teaspoon of salt something.
Then another bag with milk, 1/4 teaspoon of vinilla. Put ingredients as wanted.
Put smaller bag inside a big bag. Then shake it until the product is done.
Now I rather stay at DC than my room. My room got no AC, its freaking Hot. Naw DC is way to cold.

Call me yo Suga

Wo0o. Its so hot in here. So lets take off all our clothes!
{Thursday, April 16, 2009}
Classed like usual =I. Hmm... caught up on astro. I didn't go to the class like.. 4 times. I'm disappointed in myself. -.- I deserve a beating. Not! Raymond called me up around 6... and met up with him then Simon came to eat at DC. I met 2 Kevin Nguyen's and some dude. We ate then headed to the bricks cus one of the Kevin gotta do something. Then Fred came and we all walked to Shirley's house. I was pimpin them. 6 guys and 1 girl walking the streets of SJ in the "Ghetto". Got to her house around 9:30. The party didn't start cus no one came yet. We played beer pong. I was partner with Shirley "The Birthday Girl" Vs. 2 Kevin Nguyens. We lost =(... but like 4 cups. Then more people came, the whole house was filled with people =). Partied, drank, talked. I played another game with Carmen as my partner.. but it was a EPIC lost. I made only like 3 and she made 1 but we did celebrity shot and raymond got it in =). I couldn't shoot for shit. Cut the cake around 2. Shirley's sister Lily was so funny. She kept saying bye to me and kept hugging me. Hugged me over 5 times and didn't want to let me go. It was cute. I don't know why but I drank a lot..=/We left then walked back... The walk was torture. I had to baby sit Raymond. "Bok mong ah" All I remember was that we got back around 3 something. I wanted to go to class the next day but I forgot to put an alarm -.-. I hope I didn't do anything stupid. I was tested the next day about what I can remember.. & I failed. -,-
{Friday}
I forgot what happen........-.^. OH yes. Cal trained back around 5 then head to century to visit Tony Peng. I was debating if I have time to visit him, so I walked to the underground train station then elevated back cus ugh...Idk I already told him that Ima visit him and I keep my words. I haven't seen him for a while. Met up with Mimi&Oliver at the Powell station, but Oliver left so Mimi&I headed to Stones to meet with everyone else. Saw Vicki and we went to Borders. We went to get some naughty things for Hendryers as a bday present. We took a while to pick the perfect one. Mimi opened up with all mens and I saw there Lun. I gotta wash my virgin eyes now. Sike. We bought PlayBoy 6.6... LOL I bought the book and the lady that rang me up didn't ask for ID's. WOW! We were wondering everywhere tryna to find chairs to sit and write stuff inside the book. Yes, We opened it up and we saw some raisins and RESPECT. We wrote on it too. =). We finished it then tried to get it wrapped and I saw Patrick =o. So whatever we went to them and apparenlty we all got the same taste in Porn and bought the exact magazine. =.=Woah... the guys have to exchange it ^o^ Just cus we bought it first and wrote on it. =p Funny coincident. Waited super long at Olive Garden for the table. Hella hungry by that time. Went to Trader Joes and got some Frozen chocolate banana. It matches the magazine. Fo real. Hmm.. We start eating by idk what time. I ate a couple of bites the noodles and I felt like yacking. =(.. Didn't have the appetite, but I hope it wasn't the after effect from the day before.... Dinner ended then headed to Bluemoon. Wasn't successful. Home it went.
{Saturday}
Woke up super early for Davis. There was a picnic day at Davis. We mostly just walked around a lot, ate sushi and water fight. Supposedly drink.... but we got card trying to buy it. HAHA... It was hot too, but the weather was nice =). The water fight was good. haha. Came back kind of late.
{Sunday}
Woke up around 11. Left the house with my sister and headed to the AT&T park. Visit Ruthie @ the Giants Dugout store ^o^. HAHA I watched her work and I was non stop laughing at her. I wished I got the job =(. It would be hella fun if we worked together. People there are hella chill too. My sister bought me a Giants jacket for my bday cus I been telling her I wanted one.. haha no surprise there but I didn't care. She purchased around like two hundred something and saved 109 buckaroos. Waited until it was Ruthie's break time so we can hang out. Headed to Starbucks then went to the back and watched the game. 1st time I went and I was that close to the players. Yee that was cool. Then said our "Seeyalaters" cus Idk when I would see her again. We all split up and I headed to DT. Was supposedly go to JT for the Cherry Blossom festival but my plans never work. =/.. but instead I headed to Tony Pengs house. Tpee, Jason, Vicki, Martin and Clauren made sushi ^o^. Yums! Thanks Tpee =). We just hung out.... then I had to leave at 6:30 back to SJ. It was a overall good day for me. 1 thing I did before I left was go on limewire and DL some songs. & tm is 420~
I saw Matt @ DC....and he looked so cute cus it was 420! HAHA he was slow but said Hi to before I even saw him. He was giggling a lot tho. People that are high are way cooler.

我不開心

I was having a good week but I was knocked down until today and I feel a little sad today..... Idk but I just do. This morning I got locked inside my own room because the lock was stuck. My morning started bad already. I don't want to deal with more...but I'm so sick of that Fags shit. I'm sick of it.. He said "Fuck you" to me.. He turned his head away from me and said it quietly. Even though he thinks they are just jokes. I got irritated. Then he said are you crying... No, I'm F' whining to get your face outa mine. GOshh I wanna kick him in the face. Every time in English class the M'fucka pisses me off. He always had to sit next to me too. I get capped on and I know it, All guys like that but I have Feelings too. SJ guys take it overboard and I'm done and gone with it.
Then In class I recieved a txt from T with R's phone... He said like hey cutie =[. I'm so over it... then he was saying " ILY". I'm a heartbreaker. I can play hardcore with you but I don't have to heart to. Your full of BS. Same with friends. I wanna tell you something... but your blindly to see cus she got you hypnotize with her fakeness. If I tell you, this might break your friendship with her. I guess some people prefer fake friends than honest one or your just to innocently dumb to realize it.
我不能玩趕.

I want some unconditional love. Its hard isin't it ='[. Make me smile at least for the sorrow I have to live through. I might look tough but my heart is shattered into pieces, you took the best out of me. I treat you like gold. And you repay me by treating me like bronze. I hear you out but you can't hear me out? Thanks. I put a smile out to play you all.

School days

{Sunday, April 12, 2009}
I woke up around 11:30 and my body was sore! I felt that my baby upper two packs of abdominals were really sore. What a work out seriously. I enjoyed it. My arm hurted when I was stripping. Chatted and procrastinated, waiting till its 7 to go back to SJ, but I got a ride from Uncle David at 5. There was a awkward convo in the car. I was being sarcastic and nice.. and he said "I will tell my son Andrew to call you sometimes to eat." He goes to San Jose often so yea. Apparently, he help me fixed my computer and I met him like twice. =/ If I do hang out with him it means I would be the youngest person there and all of them graduated from college and has jobs. =}. Got back early. I did Laundry with Carita&Steve.
{Monday, April 13, 2009}
I slept till 11:30 super Sleepy. The night before *Cathyrn & Winnie [Katherine & Winny] came to sleepover at my room because they came back from Britney Spears concert. It was too late for them to bus back. I wished I went... =}. We talked for like a really long time then we slept at 2. They woke up really early to catch the bus back to SC. =I. Lily woke me up reminding me to get fee movie tickets. So I got ready and left in 10 minutes. Perfect timing because I got class at 12:30. Got the ticket for Fast and the Furious4. Finished class by 3 and finished hw by 6 then procrastinated and showered. I checked my grades and I passed my Math test!! ^o^ Made my day.. Super happy. Went to the movies by 9:26 and it starts at 9:30. I watched it with Lily, Ken, Tony, Steven and Katie. Reminder: Never to sit next to Tony! The movie was ok... just because I like imported cars more than American cars. =o Is there really a tunnel through the borders? I wanna find it =p. Paul Walker was hot as usual. That cutie =).. That made the movie good tho. This one is totally different from Tokyo Drift but similar to the 1st and the 2nd. There was a Nissan GTR. Yummy. Got back pretty late... hmm then chatted then slept. Guess what guys! I went to all of my classes today.. =o Shocker right? Didn't miss 1 today. Gday.

Great weekend.

{Friday, April 10, 2009}
I walked out my room ready to leave with my stuff, but I saw Tony and Katie. So we just talked and not realizing that I might be late for my train. -.- Missed my train and had to wait for like 10 minutes. Got to dt then ba-see to CT. I wanted Pocky so I walked on Grant and I saw Hai, outside of sweetheart. He got me some food ^o^... I miss the Fried Octopus and the Milk Tea there. It was the best. We walked up and =O. I saw hella people from middle school... That was fun =). Then I went home and did laundry and unpacked. Then I got a call from Bena for movies... I was thinking nah but it was free and it was Haunting in Connecticut & I get to see Tpee if its at Century. Haven't seen him for a while =/. Got a ride from Martin to dt. Thanks, wished the ride was longer so I can shake stuff from you =). Waited at the dome for the rest of the people which was..... Bena, Oliver, Linda, Mimi and Jason. We were suppose to watch Hannah Montana suggested from Jason. Instead we watched Haunting in Connecticut. I jumped and got scared twice. There was 1 part which I was laughing like crazy...So the guy next to me and two other guys in front hella Jumped during one part and literally screamed! I was just sitting there Hella Laughing. That made my movie & thats why I like it. Haha Oh boy, and I the guy next to me said "Shit I'm sweating to his girl" and I realized I was sweating too. Whooo, so I took off my jacket and he followed me. Lol... I think he was black too =I...Then Ratcha! I ordered Pad Thai. It was soo sweet... not good. Hmm we were there for like about 2 hrs or even more. Lol Good catching up. Then home it goes.
Saturday, 11 2009}
Hmm woke up late... and super tired so didn't make it to Yum Cha =x. Oh wells...w.e. The night before I had to do my astro hw which was due at 10 a.m. =.= I finished around 3. Then went to bed at 4 but couldn't sleep till 5. =[ I was super tired tho but I couldn't sleep. Thinking too much. Slept around 6, I think. Went to Chiro appointment and its the last appointment =). Koo koo. Then headed to AP Park... I got there by 4 and got shot in the eye by squirtles! I hella didn't want to get my face wet so I bent down but forgot my ASS can be a target. Gah. By the time I came they already finished the game. Poo. boring. Sat for a while then all the benchers went to Eggettes. I wanted to shoot hoops so I played Horse with Clauren. Apparently I kick ass in Horse and Clauren is a sore Loser. I won him twice in Horse ^o^. Then the guys finished taking breaks so I played Horse with Oliver, Clauren, Raymond, Sally, and Zhi. It was fun ^o^ cus I had to do all the tricks they made me do that I never even try before. Something new =) In the end, It was down to Oliver&I. I just needed a E but I kept making the basketball in after another. Then the girls came back and we had to end our game of Horse cus they wanted to play. The result of that game was a tie =(. Poo! I could have whipped Oliver. We had 6 girls vs. 1 boy. We whipped them all =p beside the time when we played against Oliver&Clauren. I always liked Basketball. Super tired and sore after the game. We headed to Eggettes to fix our thirst. Then to Hawaiian Drive in at Sloat. We ate there until probably 9. Hmm picked Mimi up at Stones then Headed to Sweet Cafe. Left around 11 something then got home.
I wanna play basketball again! I miss it.
Heres a video to show how I can beat Clauren. I didn't know he was recording too.. He brought this upon himself =p. It was also a easy shot since he said "Is there a harder version." Under leg cross over shot.

Inspirational Art

I was browsing around the internet and felt very inspired by some photographs and art. It got my inside filled with happiness. I really want to go to Museums like Explortorium and the Science thingy to look around and see what has changed and what not. That is my goal over summer. YeeAh!... I decided to build my own album of photos. This would be something new that I would love to do. 8)

My past few days, my mood has been like the picture on the left. Frustrated with irritation. Annoyed with pathetic immature people. Disliked all the hatred around the world. Peace was all I ever asked for.


Just like the picture on the right, the threads goes in a ovally shape. It also breaks away and I truly believe in Karma. "What goes around comes around." Hopefully karma has came and left my circle of youth.

Time passes by for a reason

Can you believe its April? Well I can't. I don't want June to come. -_-Dnopameyrc.
But I gotta deal with it right?
Everything would be ok.....
My goal is to hug a different person each day. HAHAH!! & Laugh every single day. KAKAKA Stay away from emo/mean/inconsiderate people and Haters. Decent enough >.^
I made a new friend named Benny today just as I went to the VM to get dinner. It was a classmate last semester in my Comm class and he is from SF and also went to Lincoln.

Well Spring Break is currently over. Did many things, saw many people I usually see.
But I'm happy to see some different faces that I don't usually see ^o^. I'm Content.
JelloShots.HotelParty.YoyosBirthday.Partyatpeopleshouses. KingsCup.BeerPong.FormalDinner.Shopping.Driving.&♥Weather.
Wow, Time passes so fast tho... I don't want the semester to end yet. I wanna enjoy it longer.

I believe in Karma... Its gonna come and kick me in the ass soon even though it happened before Spring break. #.+ Hopefully it happened already w/o my notice.

Regular days in SJ

I just met Tony's roommate and hes a white guy. First thing I notice was he was cute! I usually don't have a guy fetish for white guy but he was different. He was into cars and I like. He also has an accent which I think was cute!! He was nice but I think hes a good good boy which I am not down with. Haha he was nicee... and sweet. =). Dream on JiaLi.
Oh yea.. He has an accent like the white guy in Tokyo Drift! haha... He got nice biceps too...but takes a lot of supplements.
So I lost in Duce. I am a sore loser -_-. I had to double up my jumping jacks cus I cant do push-ups for shit.

I wanna Chern K! I have some new songs and I am so Satisfied that I got it and its those songs that I can listen to it repeaditly cus Its those songs that you would get hook on. Thanks Minna&Yoyo.
♫Your Gold dust..... ♫
♫I can't catch my breath... Cause you take it away.♫
♫I never thought that I would fall for you thought as I can....
cause boy you came around and you knocked me down..
knocked me down...
Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down.
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer loves call♫

My major should be related to Music. I have such passion for it.
I am craving for JooGooLick. Ferroci my love! Currently watching E.U. Its really good. Almost everyone that I know are watching it so you should to. There's this one character which is very cocky in the beginning and towards the end he is actually a very sweet/caring person. Reminds me of someone =/.. Why can't all guys and sometimes girls be like that?

I would hate to commute.

Idislikethenewfacebook.
People IM me there instead of my sn and the people that doesn't have my sn talk to me on facebook convo. I don't even go on it anymore x_X. And the chatting happened 2 times today. I will just turn it off for today me.
I have bruises from Hiphop class. I was super tired after it cus I haven't stretch/exercise for so long. It hurts. It was fun/interesting/embarrassing some what. Over this break, I have been waking up at 8. Sigh.. HoeJohAh. Tried to take a little nap before dinner but my mom woke me up after 15 minutes. I was so off to my own little land. So.. Today, I drove continuously for hours and hours. Drove to ct to drop my dad and aunt. Drove back home. Drove my mommy to work at Treasure Island. The view was soo nice. Since my mom was early.. We just sat there and watched the view and talked. Continuously driving on freeways =.+. I noticed as I was driving on the Bay Bridge... People drives at a sync speed. Everyone was beside 1 person in front of me which was cutting hella people off. Then got to the regular freeway and people drive hella rectless and speeding like crazy which caused me to go up to 75 -_-. Just imagine if I lived in Sunset, No freeways at all buttt Nay. Drove back home. Ate/rested/shower and out again. RushRushRush. Then drove to Serra and shopped with Ruthie. Caught up... O0oo0o This Naughty one. tsktsk. I stocked up on food for SanJosie. The food totaled together was $29.90 at target. Haha About Target... Oh man....I was bending down picking 3 cartridges of gold fishes. They don't have the Jalapeno gold fishes anymore. I loved =). Hmm so this guy was walking pass me like twice then he said "So here the Chocolate chip cookies that I've been looking for and it was hiding behind you." My Bad =/... Then he told me that it was hella good with Milk. Rofl and saw the stuff I was carrying and it was all junks :q. He suggested I should get milk too but doesn't realize I am lactose. Was super friendly and was making a convo w/ me.. He was older than me tho. YapYap and talked to us about jobs and future what not. Asked if we go "Clubbin" Fcukin Ruthie said San Jose turned me into a party girl cus SJSU is a party school. -_- I thought it was hella weird that he even asked about that and our age. Just cus we look like we party girls. Mang! Suggested we should go to Ruby Sky which is a club. Ruthie said she heard of Glaskat and he said it was weak. ROFL. Tried looking for his business card so he can give it to us and hes in retail industry. Looked at me directly in the eyes and wanted to give me his #... but I said Ruthie has her phone out so he typed it in and called himself. AssHole, but I Don't have to deal with this anymore. HAH her turn. HAHA!! Before he left he told me that SJ is really chilled and the people in SF aren't down to earth and it is so true prob because of stress. Seriously... The economy is in a recession. =/. Then drove her home and then drove back home. Ate in 5 minutes. Then headed to CT to pick up my dad. Then Home it is now. =( Ugh.. I don't have a ride back to SanJosie. =,(... I worry about how to get back all the time. I hate thinking about it. I just wish my sister isin't so busy all the time =/ and have more time with me.

Bright side... I really like my outfit for formal ^o^. Sleek enough and Classy =x.. Its something different that I don't have for sure. Watch the next formal dinner... pwuoiuejdstartewigntdesres. I am so sore for tomorrow tho. Heels again.. I like wearing heels tho its just my legs are very sore.

Feeling You ♫

You know your the only one I'm seeing.
All the time I gotta be with you
You! You know I'm feeling you.
Whatever you wanna do!
♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫
I bombed my math test. GTFO!!
Bad day.
Saw him today and he looked mad. =/. I am mad to. Fck! I did bad on my math test.
I dislike you Math.

Did my presentation ^o^. Did awesome in Edco! =D
Bright side. I received a letter. =D YYAYAAAYAY! & my package.
Tell me why the fuck why would I put SJ address then with the city of San Francisco. Dam.. My hippocampus does not work at night. Seriously!
Why am I not that excited for break? Maybe because its the same routine all the time. Gah..


Story: As I was heading down to the lobby then to DC, I received free condoms. People were passing condoms... I got one of course. I collect them. Hm.. I put it on my right butt pocket w/ my card and keys. Got to DC, I took out the card and the condom fell out. People saw. FML. I just remembered about it because I read Fml.com and now I currently can't find it. I can't go home to sf with condoms lost in my clothes.

Thursday.

I have math lecture in about 8 mins. I am half asleep and half awake. I am soo sleepy!!!! =.= I read 128 pages yesterday. I finished up till 118 when people started to IM constantly by 5 or more people. Then people came uninvited to my room. CHURN!!=.= I took astro notes last night thinking I might be lacking cus I didn't go on Monday...today the teacher was late and apparently I was ahead of the class in notes. Wthshitty. I went to bed at 2 and prob rolled around till 3. Sigh.... I have a math test tm... Edco and presentation. Is this not hectic enough or what? All 3 of my classes tm have important stuff important stuff to do. Lop churn.
I had a dream.. Super weird! There was Joanna, Katie and hella other people and we were drinking on the balcony at a hotel near the Pier. Lol.. Then my almost best friend woke me up. I can't wake up to the alarm and txt anymore. So Churn.

Ladies

Sigh........Girls, Lady, Women. =(

Why are you jealous of me? WTF?
After hearing about you from him.. I realize that I can never trust you even though if you still consider me as your friend. I don't consider you, some one I would trust anymore.
3rd time in this kind situation.
People ask why I haven't talk to you o.O.
How the fuck would I know. It was your own decision to stop eating with me, go away and be anti-social.
I just realized until yesterday when he told me.

I believe in his side more than you just because you heard shit from Johnny.
Stop being a fucking Jealous B*tch.
It's not like I can take your BF away from you.
You! Acting like this will cause him to break it off with you.

You know what? Stay like that... so I get more confidence. Thanks B*tch..

Eat you up. Yum Yum

I am super glad I finish bsing my scholarly essay =D Bravo. I deserve Joo Goo Lick! I'm craving for that every day. I don't have any junk food at all. I only have Vitasoy. I felt stress this whole weekend cus I didn't start on any hw. I kind of forgot what happened this week..

{Thursday, March 12, 2009}
Finished my Astronomy report cus I got class on Friday. I was determined to go to class ^o^. He he. Willson called me @ 9pm to ask if I wanted to go to Jackson again.. but I didn't really want to cus I might loose money again. Then I realize it was only thursday which mean I got class tm. =o. So It was around 11 o'clock when Willson asked me to hang out. =/.. They were gonna drink, but I didn't want to cus I had to wake up hella early to make it to class. Might as well drag my pillow to class if I fall asleep =.= I went to Simons room to meet Raymond, Carmen, and Willson up and they got steel. Yucky.. Kind of nasty. It was fun cus we were on campus trying to find a chill spot to drink. We went to the Old spot which was behind Baccardo Business building. We were sitting there then cops went WeeWooWeeWoo... We did a quickstyle run. Cops were right there so we had to wait until they leave. Hmph Walked around almost the whole campus trying to find a better spot but end up at the same spot. Adventurous. Sat there and Willson constantly smoked x(. I kept dodging. After they finished drinking... The guys wanted to do some photo shoot with a random fraternity rock. I was the photographer. Hella FUNNY!! omg Willson was so Funny! He cracked me up. LMAO. Simon was high, Willson was tipsy, Raymond was buzzed. Just imagine how the picture would be.Willson kept bootybumping and he was like a monkey. Haha.. too funny. Hmm I went back to my room around 1. Hmm.. Was in the bathroom getting ready.. brushed my teeth and heard a siren go off from the building but it wasn't a fire alarm soo continued brushing. Then Willson babe called and said,"Can I go to your room?" Of course my answer was HEll no, but he was outside my door already -_-. AH this drunk ass!!! It was like 2 goddam it. Then he wanted to Yack. =.= He yacked in my trash can. Thanks a lot Willykins. Hmm. I had to walk him back to his room in a T-shirt. I walked out my room and realized that Lindsay was in the hospital. =o. Omg.. I told Katie that she was hella wasted and should check up on her around 9, but she didn't want to cus Lindsay always get drunk. I would have went to check up on her cus she went to Jason's room, but it would have been awkward. Just walked this niggy back and as we walk out from the elevator.. there was hella cops. Iya! Willykin was spitting everywhere. Eww! He used a hanger to wack my butt.. OMG!! Just think about how much that hurts when I was only wearing sweats. Painful :q. Just stole his NF jacket. That bitch. Slept at 3. Thanks for the txt and call for waking me up. =) Appreciate muchies. I would have seriously just fall back asleep. I was that tired.
{Friday, March 20th, 2009}
Class. Laundry. This week was my 1st time doing laundry in SJ. Haha.. I usually do laundry at home =x. It was alright.. I'll be doing it here I guess. I woke Raymond and Willson up @ 1. I got swiped in and we ate at DC. I saw Mitchell Coloma =O. It was nice seeing someone from SF =). Found out about his T-mobile booth. Lol. Then as I was talking to him I saw Hum Lun from the door. Yikes. I wanted to hide! I thought he went back to SF but apparently he stayed till Friday. He looked so tired o.O Once I know Ima see him, I know my lunch would be cruetial. Indeed it was.Lol. Ate with Willson, Humlun, Raymond... Then a pack of asian came in which was Dani, Christian, Richie, and Liana.. Then more came which was Thomas and Cora. Hah. I didn't eat lunch with them for hella long =). Sigh... Again. Hum lun sat next to me. AH! Talkedtalked. We had a small tissue paper fight. Rawr. Stupid Tony later... Wanted me to help him get Katie, but if he does.. Why does he keep saying I'm Hen ke ai. Than rates me an 8 and her a 5? WTF! Quit it. Left with Willson, Raymond and I went to meet up Simon and Donald cus were going to Valley fair. Woohoo! Bus ride was horrible and scary. Mexicans look at me like a piece of meat. Grimmy. Walked around and we mostly didn't buy anything then headed to Santana Row. It's so Nice =). Rich people go there and we saw the nicest cars =/. Got Pinkberry. 1st time. Yummy in my tummy. c(= Then headed to Urban outfitters and Willson was the only one that bought something. Headed back to my room. Then ate at DC.
{Saturday, March 14, 2009}
Woke up at 1. Headed to see the house with Willson and Simon. The house is so nice and big. Bigger than my SF house. =/ but yet to far from school. This is between you and I only!! Ate at Tsugaru @ Japantown with Willson, Raymond, Donald, and Simon. I ordered a Karage Chicken. It was fried but yet very good. D-licious. Willson and I constantly kept saying "Eat you up." "So YumYum." Look @ my sn status and guess what song it is. Lol. Stopped by the park and we played on the swing. Got back to the campus. We went to my room... just cus idk. AH stupid Willson seriously needs to stop his playing around. Remind me to get a pack of Sobe from Donald =).
{Sunday, March 15, 2009}
Woke up at 1. Ate with Willson & Raymond. Hmm.. Finished my paper =). Yay!! Went to VM cus the sick kid wanted me to go with him. Saw the creature there which was HumLun =(, Michelle and Willson. AH! HumLun Jerk see had to call me the nickname when I left. =(. Now Blogging. So I am watching the last episode of Gem of Life. Then this thing pops up saying I already watched 72 hrs on it and it STOPPED!! Iya... I am trying to finish it then sleep. JeezLouize.